THE LOSERS' CLUB SERIES #4 How does it feel to live with tons of what ifs and should-have-beens? Knowing that under different parameters, you could have worked it out. Knowing that if you only weathered the storm together, you could have built a home in each other's arms. Napakaraming sana--ganiyan ang naging takbo ng buhay ni Ysabelle Katana Montecer. Sana mayaman siya. Sana mas maganda. At sana may kapangyarihan siyang ibalik ang oras. If only she had listened to the little voice in her head, she could have been in a relationship with the only man who ever caught her attention--River Mattias Fuentabella. But it was too late for her. She was a ticking time bomb waiting to go off. A heartbeat away from silence. Kahit ayaw niya, kailangan niyang tanggapin ang hatol ng tadhana. River would always be out of her reach. He was close, but not too close enough for her to hold. They could have happened. They could have been together. But sadly, they never were.

Started: 04/27/2021 Ended: 08/24/2021 Ang hirap palang tumanda. Ang hirap magbayad ng bills. Ang hirap suportahan ng pamilyang akala ay isang milyon ang suweldo mo. Ang hirap ngumiti sa nanay na mataas ang tingin sa'yo pero hindi ka kayang ipagtanggol. Ang hirap tabihan sa hapagkainan ng tatay na pinag-uubusan mo ng pera pero hindi ka maalala. Ang hirap mag-abot ng tulong sa kapatid na baon sa utang. Ang hirap intindihin ng hipag na nakakapagpa-rebond pa kahit kapos na kapos na. Ang hirap pakisamahan ng bunsong halos ilahad ang mga palad tuwing makikita ka. Ang hirap ngitian ng mga taong tanong nang tanong kung bakit hindi ka pa nakakapag-asawa. Ang hirap humarap sa mundong isasampal sa'yo na mag-isa ka. Tulong, bigay, utang. Isang iling mo lang, madamot ka na. Kasama mo sila kapag may maibibigay ka, pero hindi mo sila mahahanap kapag wala na. Ikaw ang kakayod, sila ang tutuka. Ikaw ang iiyak sa pagod, sila ang magtatamasa. Iyon ang summary ng buhay ko. Sobra-sobra ang naririnig na paghingi, kulang na kulang ang naririnig na pasasalamat. Sobra-sobra ang pagpapasensya, kulang na kulang ang natatanggap na pagpapahalaga. Sobra-sobra ang binabayaran, kulang na kulang sa kasiyahan. Kaya nang dumating sa buhay ko ang nag-iisang lalaking hindi ako nakita bilang naglalakad na alkansya, ang nag-iisang lalaking nakinig sa mahabang listahan ko ng problema, ang nag-iisang lalaking nagbigay sa akin ng kakaibang saya, ipinangako ko sa sarili na sa gitna ng hirap ng pagtanda, magtitiis ako basta't siya ang kasama. Kahit pa ang kapalit noon ay pagtalikod sa minahal na pamilya. Kahit pa ang kapalit noon ay paglaban sa mundong pinatatakbo ng kapangyarihan at pera. Kahit pa ang kapalit noon ay ang pagdurusa't pag-iisa. Siya ang ginhawa, pahinga, at kasiyahan ko. Dumating man ang araw na tanaw ko na ang dulo. Dumating man ang araw na wala na kaming sagot sa lahat ng bakit at paano. Dumating man ang araw na pareho na kaming talo.

Syden Amaryllis only dreamed of three things in life: to find her parents, to have her own complete family and to be a doctor. Nabuhay ang pag-asa niyang iyon nang ampunin siya ng mga Costello at ibigay lahat ng bagay sa kaniya. She thought she was already accepted. She thought she's already a part of that world until she met Atticus Rhett Vasiliev, ang kaibigan ng kaniyang kapatid na si Boaz. Rhett always made her feel like she's nothing. Spitting unpleasant words on her and being cold to the point that she felt afraid of him. She wanted to stay away but fate brought them closer together when they were put up into an engagement that they cannot refused. With her soft and frightened heart on his cold one, will she be able to melt him? If she has nothing, what else could she prove?

Insecure, selfish, and coward. If Verbena Regencia will be asked how does she describe herself, those three words will be her answer. Alam niya sa sarili niya na ganoon ang magiging tingin ng tao sa kaniya kapag nalaman ng lahat ang mga ginawa niya noon. She was given a chance to leave her home and when she did, she did not dare to come back. The arrival of her brother and his best friends suddenly made her reminisce everything after almost three years of not coming home---Why she had to move away and why she had to stay away from her family for years, all those questions reminded her that she should avoid them. Verbena thought she did a good job at running away but when Crithos Fortuno, her brother's best friend, started pestering the peace out of her, she started losing patience. He was stubborn and acts like he knows everything that she knows. He was uncontrollable, like a playful beast. She ran away. He followed and chased her. Like the uncontrollable beast that he is, he caught and trapped her. The tables have turned and now, he controlled everything-made her fall in love with him. But is everything even real or was it just all a play? Paano kung kailangan niya ng sabihin ang lahat...handa na ba siya para roon? Handa na ba siyang mawala ang lahat sa kaniya?

SG President Adina Balmori was uptight and too formal. She grew up believing that she shouldn't settle for imperfections because she had an image to maintain. At a young age, a lot had been expected from her. Mula sa talento hanggang sa kakayahan ng utak. Until, she met Nile de Ayala, a Spanish transferee who's carefree, playful and wild. She knew he was trouble lalo na nang mag-alok ito ng isang proposisyon sa kaniya. She knew it was an impossible deal yet she was tempted. Dapat ay lumayo na siya sa una palang. Pero mas pinili niyang mapaso at makipaglaro sa laro ng tadhana dahil nandoon ang kasiyahang damang-dama niya at handa niyang ipagpalit sa lahat. But little did she know, there was an end to it.

For Zepporah Bevacque, family is important. Her family should be her top priority. Ginawa niya ang lahat para tanggapin siya, lalong-lalo na ng kaniyang ina. Ang gusto niya lang naman ay unahin din siya ng mga tao sa paligid niya gaya ng pag-una niya sa kanila. Ano bang mali sa kaniya? Bakit galit na galit pa rin ang kaniyang ina sa kaniya sa kabila ng mga nagawa niyang gusto nito? She never felt accepted, prioritized and loved until Eion Callaghan, the bassist of college band, Absinthe, came knocking on her cage. She felt freedom when she's with him. Wala siyang iniisip kung hindi ang sarili lang kapag kasama siya. Eion was like her escape from reality. Sa wakas ba ay makikita niya na ang hinahanap niyang pagtanggap at pagmamahal sa kabila ng gulo ng kaniyang buhay? Will she be able to free herself from everything? Will she finally comes first before anything else?

Nuraya just knew she had to give it all. Sa hirap ng buhay kailangan niya na lang talagang ibigay ang best niya para maatim lahat ng pangarap niya sa buhay. She had set all her goals into places but then he came and change everything. Hindi siya handa sa ganoong bagay. Nagulo ang naplano na niyang buhay dahil sa Filipino-Greek vocalist ng bandang Absinthe. He was the most gorgeous man her eyes ever laid on. His green eyes captured everything in her but she knew it needed to end there. Hindi siya dapat magpadala at magpahila sa bugso ng damdamin. But then she was swayed. All her principles were swayed by him...

PUBLISHED UNDER LIB Note: If you're not into flawed characters who make wrong decisions, don't read this. Save yourself from stress. Started: 10/07/2020 Ended: 11/18/2020 Elora Chin Valencia grew up in a toxic Christian family where she was viewed as the black sheep. Araw-araw ay ipinaparamdam sa kanya ng mundo na wala siyang lugar sa sarili niyang tahanan. She was a consistent dean's lister and an obedient daughter, which left her wondering what she had done so wrong to be disregarded as a speck of dust in the wind. They made her feel like she was just dirt, filling up the empty space. The one who would never have her own safe place. Feeling all of this contributed to her endless suicidal ideations. Baka nga tama sila. Baka nga wala siyang halaga at kailanman ay hindi na sasaya. She almost believed that. She almost held onto that notion. Not until she met the man in his BS Civil Engineering uniform and gorgeous grin, Troy Jefferson Dela Paz. He kissed her forehead, and her loud thoughts were silenced. Her demons calmed down. Her foes were defeated. For the first time in her life, she had proven her family wrong---a happy Elora Chin was possible. She was loved and well-taken care of. Troy embraced her sharp parts, not minding the wounds he might get. But fate had a lot of cruel things in store for her. Because when she thought she had reached the peak of happiness, she found myself drowning alone in the ocean she now called home, alone in her shame, alone with the waves she couldn't tame.