TheOrderOfTheGash
I wasn't always like this.
Once, I was asked by a client what my inner most desire is, and I told him, I need to be loved. The only thing I wanted was love, 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭 love. Everyone loved my appearance, no one loved 𝘮𝘦.
After that session, I continued to think about what it is that I truly desire. I thought back to all the compliments I receive and how each one fills me with an unimaginable disgust and a relentless loathing within. With this, I finally knew what it is that I truly desire: to be ugly. Thus when my client returned, I had my new answer prepared.
"Now tell me again, what is your deepest desire?" I looked up into the eyes of the wretched man that had become quite familiar to me and confidently voiced my inner most desire.
"To be ugly."
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