Ryan finds the perfect opportunity to explore a previously uncharted area of his sexuality in secret during a month long summer road-trip to California with his best friend. But now he's back in Las Vegas for his Senior year and he can continue to compartmentalize this part of himself and pretend that everything is normal. But then Brendon Urie happens. Again. And again and again and again... can Ryan handle it this time? In which Ryan struggles to keeps everything together and honestly just needs a hug. ~~~Ryan's POV~~~ ***includes smut, language some might find offensive, underage drinking/drug use, sexual assault and mediocre writing. Started: Oct. 15, 2018 # 1 in Ryden @ some point ***I DO NOT SUPPORT BRENDON URIE OR ACTUALLY SHIP RYDEN

A Ryden AU fan fiction, set in the 90's. Featuring past and current line up of P!ATD, plus members of other bands. Ryan/Brendon 1st POV. Trigger warnings: Substance abuse (alcohol + drugs), violence, sex, death, torture references. All characters are completely fictional and do not reflect the real life of the person they're based on. Please forgive me & let me know if you notice any errors in the story and I'll get these updated asap, either with spelling/grammar or not being factually correct (I'm British so bound to make some mistakes). Part One - Completed Part Two - Coming soon