- Sequel to Love and War! - Ethan always tried to tell himself it didn't matter if he was the way he was - even though it wasn't. He lived only to exist, and wait for the day he died. But when he is suddenly pulled into a world full of honesty and love - he starts to wonder if he really was existing at all. And as he starts to learn about the dark past hanging over his new boyfriends' heads, he realizes why it's important to do more than exist. But how can he change after all those years believing that he would never deserve that kind of love? Will he change at all? WARNINGS: Depression, eating disorder, self-hatred, rape/non-con, abuse, injuries, car accident, stalking, angst, all the fun stuff.

Anorexia nervosa. Two little words Virgil holds on the piece of paper. They explain everything and nothing at the same time. 'An eating disorder usually characterized by an unhealthy obsession with losing weight.' And Virgil feels nothing monumental. No big realization or repulsion to the words. It's just what it is. Virgil has anorexia. Anorexia nervosa. (This is a fiction based on the Sander's Sides series from youtuber Thomas Sanders! Ship is polysanders/LAMP, but the main focus isn't on romance. The only characters are the four sides!)