Sequel to Down // Treebros ·· Soulmates AU Michael Mell was adopted by two amazing, eccentric Dads at age 5. At age 7 he met a boy named Jeremy Heere. By age 10 he fell madly in love with him. When he reached high school, he tried to keep up a facade for his Dads; Mr Murphy and Mr Hansen. Not Mr Murphy-Hansen. How will he cope with his Aunts, Dads and Uncle Jared working at his school? How will he cope in the grayscale when Jeremy Heere walks out of his life? How will he cope when his life shatters before his very eyes.

Huge thanks to @Saphirdrache / @Zitronendrache for the amazing cover. I absolutely love it. The world was always black and white. You always felt empty. They would always promise you that there's someone for you. All you have to do is kiss them and the world will turn right side up... ...They pray that it will turn right side up. **TRIGGER WARNING** Suicide Self-harm Anxiety Panic Attacks Abuse And a whole lot more - I know I'm evil haha September 25th 2017 - December 11th 2017

"What the fuck are you doing with my soulmate?" Connor says, his jaw clenched as he glares at the jock. "Oh please, if he was your soulmate I'd shoot myself." He rolls his eyes unworried. "Then you better fucking load the gun." Connor says through his gritted teeth, his forehead pressing against his. Fuck. *** Evan Hansen, the boy who is too socially awkward for his own good. He will always believe in the thought of having a soulmate. Someone who'll save him from the hell that is known as his life. Connor Murphy, the boy who believed in the exact opposite. He thought that he'd never meet his soulmate. That even if he did, it wouldn't have changed anything. Emphasis on the past tense. »Everything changes, after a simple shove«

Everyone is born with a timer on their wrist, counting down to the exact time they'll meet their soulmate. Connor Murphy doesn't believe in soulmates. Or rather, that he doesn't have one. At the beginning of the summer, something happened. His timer stopped. He didn't meet his soulmate. The timer broke. It stopped at 2 months, 1 day, 3 hours and 23 minutes. The same time Evan Hansen jumped. HIGHEST RANKS #1 in dearevanhansen - June 17th, 2021 #2 in treebros - June 17th, 2021 #27 in musicaltheatre - June 17th, 2021

Evan always tried to hide his flowers. It was pointless, almost everyone had them, but their flowers were bright yellows and pinks that made them look like walking flower bouquets. His were dark colors - blacks, reds, browns, and purples - that made him look morbid and intimidating. And his flowers stood for the worst things too. While Jared was covered in bright pink flowers that meant heartbreak, Evan had a huge, red, zinnia on the back of his neck that meant depression, dark purple irises on his arms, legs, and face that meant bruises, and black flowers lining his wrists meaning self harm. There were almost 47 black flowers. He hated it, being marked as the kid who was supposed to fall in love with a depressed psychopath. It didn't help that his anxiety would spike at the worst possible times, causing him to trip and stutter at the worst times. • Connor didn't choose to be born with depression, a feeling that started at the back of his neck and just seemed to grow. He didn't choose to be covered in burns and bruises from his abusive father, and he didn't choose to have a bright blue flower on the palm of his hand that symbolized anxiety. He wanted to end it all - the pain, the humiliation, the fucking flower that would grow at the worst possible times. He hated how everything that happened to him would affect his soulmate. Only he deserved to feel that pain.