"I like you as a person Mr.Irwin, nothing more than that." "Really? That's not what it seemed like when I had you moaning my name." - - - In the summer of 1995, a shy closeted boy named Luke goes to a pride parade and meets a hot guy named Ashton and they immediately click. Once the summer ends, they both expect to never see each other again, but Ashton turns out to be a new teacher at Luke's school. [Started on 12/16/18]

In which, Luke Hemmings is a boy of grace and poise. He has been in ballet for the entirety of his life. He was cherubic and the picture of innocence. He was unaware of the cruel world he lived in. He was blinded and innocent until he met Ashton. (cover made by my beautiful boyfriend !) PSA & WARNING: I WAS 16 WHEN I WROTE THIS HORRIBLE STORY. MANY TRIGGER WARNINGS APPLY !!!

"So what is it? Are you gay, bi, just tell me." "I don't know, but all I know is that I want to be with you." - - - Luke moves from Australia to the United States to go to a ballet school, and has to deal with his host parent's moody son, Ashton. Despite his flirting and always trying to make Luke blush, Ashton claims he's straight. Fem!Luke

The last thing Ashton ever wanted to do was hurt Luke, but he couldn't help it. The singer was just so beautiful, so ethereal and otherworldly that it took his breath away most of the time. Everyone felt that way about their best friend though, right? It was normal. No use getting unnecessary feelings involved, it was better this way. Luke understood. Luke wasn't sure when this thing between him and Ashton started, or how it started, but it didn't matter. He was in too deep to go back now. So Luke would let Ashton use him, hurt his feelings and crawl back with apologies. Because at the end of the day, even when Luke had to watch Ashton leave the bar with a new pretty blonde each night, he knew the drummer would eventually end up back in his bed. And Luke told himself he was okay with that.