What if the real reason Zayn left the band was that he couldn't handle his feelings for Harry? WARNING: I WROTE THIS STORY IN 2015 . IT WAS AND IS TOTALLY FICTIONAL... I HAD NO IDEA THAT IT MIGHT SEEM MORE REAL AS TIME WENT ON AND ZARRY BOTH PUBLISHED SOLO SONGS ABOUT.... A LOVE SO... DEEP. This is their story; and the story of a girl who shipped them so hard it hurt.... Copyright 2015. All rights reserved. No reproduction or translation without permission. "This story is absolutely amazing" - Review in The Wattpad Writers Magazine by the awesome katb415. For the full review see link below. Thank you so much for reading and voting!! xx Kat (katb415 reviewed Deep in her awesome Up and Coming Wattpad Writers magazine which also has some great interviews with writers: check out the magazine here: https://www.wattpad.com/143604913-wattpad-writers-magazine-book-review-1)

❝another spider?❞ zayn asked, laughing. harry nodded sheepishly. ❝sorry.❞ every time harry comes across a little insect in his apartment he freaks out and runs to his next door neighbour zayn, who kindly gets rid of the insect. harry thinks it's utterly embarrassing, but he's to scared to deal with the insect. on the other hand, zayn thinks it's utterly adorable, and helps every time harry comes knocking on his door. [cover//@societyniaz]

❝one day, your going to be the man i marry.❞ ❝keep telling yourself that malik. keep telling yourself.❞ little did harry know, it happened.

❝it's been four short years, with hopes and dreams and fears; with a love and trust and tears,❞ or which zayn and harry broke up years ago, only left with their very broad history, a book of polaroids and unfulfilled affection. fanart cover credits to ig: zalizap © sweatshirtzarry 2017

❝you know how they say, what was it? don't judge a book by its cover? well lad, this is a prime example.❞ zayn was your typical bad boy. leather jackets, motorcycles, and smokes. everyone seems to judge zayn quite quickly. they don't know the real zayn. harry is one of those people, although he absolutely despises zayn. harry's a great student, loves everyone, & not to mention openly gay. he volunteers at a local retirement home, which just so happens to be the same place zayn volunteers. but of course, no one knows that. zayn enjoys having everyone wonder about him.   zayn's on the other side of the building, therefore they've never ran into each other. one day harry does run into zayn. and after that, he just can't help but run into zayn all the time. © sweatshirtzarry 2015

❝...what's our ship name?❞ zayn asked quietly. harry tilted his head to the side. ❝aren't boys supposed to like girls?❞ ❝it's called gay hazza.❞ ❝gay means happy.❞ ❝no, it means two boys like each other!❞ zayn and harry falling in love over the years.

Zayn is bored with his life. He has friends, but he feels like he's the annoying one that no one likes, so he doesn't really open up to them. He loves singing, and music generally, but he also likes visual art such as photography and paintings. One day he finds himself in front of a gallery that's selling photographs and paintings to raise a fund for charity. He goes in and falls in love with a painting ... he decides to buy it, and it becomes a big part of his life. The tableau shows a boy staring straight into your soul... he's drop dead gorgeous. He lives with the feeling that he knows that person, and somehow wishes he was real! He haunts his dreams every night, and Zayn finds himself drawing the same face on his notebooks, books, sketch books... imagining his smile, his voice his laugh. The boy from the painting becomes his imaginary lover, and he can't help but think he's going crazy until one day, everything changes...