"What makes you think you're already in love? You haven't even met that Zero." Natawa naman ako sa kaibigan kong si Leigh habang inaayos ko yung sintas ng sapatos ko. "Why Leigh? Do you fall in love at first sight? Hindi naman din di ba? Saka sabi mo, fall in love with the character. That's why I think I'm falling for this Zero." "You don't even know him yet, Van." "Exactly. Kaya nga ako naeexcite e. It seems that we don't know each other yet. But we can already feel the connection as if we've known each other for a long time." Natahimik naman ito doon. Pagkatapos ay sinimulan na din magpalit ng jersey. "Just slow down. You might find yourself breaking. Mamaya gamitin ka lang nyan." Umismid naman ako. "Gaya ng mga exes mo? Y'know what's wrong with you, Leigh? Pinangungunahan mo lahat. That's why no one can keep up with your standards." "Hey, I'm just saying if what if he's a psycho? A stalker? A hooker?" Tumawa naman ako dito. She's really paranoid. "Just step out of your safe zone, Leigh. You're already missing the most exciting part of life." "Slowing down isn't always bad, Vanilla." "Yeah, but look at you. Seriously? Continous failed relationships?" "Ikaw din naman a. Why aren't you finding the right one yet?" "I already found him. That's zero. I can feel the connection. He guesses everything about me perfectly. Like all of my favorites and quirks that only you and the girls can tell." I gave her an elated smile. "So, back off. And just be happy for me. Okay?" "What if that's a stalker or a paparazzi that already run a background check with you?" "Ang negative mo, Leigh. Seriously, just fall in love and get a life." Ngumiti ito ng nakakaloko. "Okay, so what will you do if that Zero is a girl?" Natigilan naman ako. "You're not Zero, are you?" "Of course not." Nakahinga naman ako. "As long as it's not you, I'm okay." "Why?" "Because I don't want to end up with a puppet like you. Yikes! A barbie doll of everyone."

And then my soul saw you and it kind of went, "Oh, there you are. I've been looking for you"

"No! Stop!" I could see her fading silhouette. She keeps on walking away just like the way I dreamt of her every night. 'No! Please don't walk away. I need to see your face. I need to know your name. I need to find you.' But I know that it wasn't enough. If there's anything that she's good at, it is into dodging people away. "Please!?" I almost beg. "I need to see you. Just stop." I keep on running and chasing after her. But like in every dreams, she kept on slowly fading away. And I could feel the same emptiness within whenever I've dreamt of this. It starts with her fading hands. Like a human form that's painfully breaking into tiny crystallized pieces that's scattered into thin air, she's dissolving in an incredibly fast-paced. "No. Please don't!" I could feel the tears that's running down on my cheeks as I try to grab her fading hand. "No! No!" As if there's a heavy rock on my chest, my breath starts to heave. I could feel the hollow emptiness within and the contradictory feeling of being crushed beneath.

What we have is just now. As long as she loves me. As long as she wants to be with me. As long as there is 'we'. I love her! But the rainbow is not just a blend of vibrant and bright colors. It doesn't even stay for a long period of time-- just enough for us to see and in a fleet of time is gone, leaving us wondering if it's real. A rainbow doesn't have black and white. It wasn't just like that. Same as love. Same as us. There were times that i want to give her up. Not because my love did fade, rather, my love is too much. Too much that letting her go is the only option left for her to choose me without hesitation, without guilt, freed of lies. I want her to grow, to weigh things as it is. I want her to make me feel that being with me is her choice. I want her to realize that i am hers and that she have to surrender herself to me as well. I want her to love me because that is the way she feels and not because it was the safest way. Being with her is paradise. It was a mixture of colored pastel. It was too vibrant to explain. But at a sudden twist of downs and ups, we are shaking. Loving her has become my weakness. The weakening thought of losing her when I fuck up is too much to run me insane. I'm overreacting perhaps. But being with her, means walking in a narrow-road of heaven. There's no security, no assurance. One wrong move, and I'll be slipping away. Just in the never ending pain of darkness, of solitude, of self-struggle. Loving her has become my addiction. I couldn't get enough of it. But so they say, what's too much can cause harm. Maybe I'm loving her too much that she finds it hard to breathe when i'm around. But yes, it is just a wishful thinking; things that I'll surely not going to say to her because i will never ever earn the courage to say so. We are just nothing but a 'fateful coincidence.'

Si Vienna Cheng ay half chinese pero pure maldita ng LCUniversity. Reyna na kung ituring sa paaralang pinapasukan niya dahil na rin ang mga magulang niya ang co - founder nito. Homophobic ito, against siya LGBT panay ang pandidiri niya kapag may nakikita siyang nagp-PDA na mga LGBT buddies, homophobic siya kung tawagin pero parang mabilis yata ang karma at kailangang niyang pakasalan ang kapwa niya babae. Meet Louise Lazaro, ang nerd na nag-aaral din sa LCU, anak din siya ng co-founder ng eskwelahang pinapasukan niya ngunit walang nakakaalam nito. Kaya naman panay ang bully sa kanya ng maarte, at purong maldita na si Vienna. Umalis ito sa kanila at napagpasyahang mamuhay mag-isa. Pinipilit kasi siya ng tatay niya para sa kursong kukuhain nito. Pero dahil mautak ang tatay niya, noon pa lang ay nakipagsundo na ito sa isa sa mga business partners niya sa industriya, yun na nga ang pamilya ng mga Cheng. Bakit nga ba sila nahantong sa ganitong sitwasyon? Samahan si Louise kung paano niya papakisamahan ang asawa niyang ubod ng arte at ingay gayong nakatira sila sa iisang bubong. Samahan rin si Vienna kung paano siya napapayag ng mga magulang nito na pakasalan si Louise as she 'Secretly Married A Nerd' Ps: super childish ng concept na 'to HAHAHAHAHAHA. Date Started: May 22, 2016 Date Ended: April 10, 2018 [HIGHEST RANK IN TEEN FICTION - RANK #8 as of APRIL 18, 2017] [HIGHEST RANK in GIRLXGIRL - RANK #1 as of JUNE 27, 2020] PS: MARAMING WRONG GRAMMARS DAHIL BANGAG ANG AUTHOR MINSAN, STILL EDITING. Thank you! God Bless 💕 © senpaikaze

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