Cas new he had fought for everything, but yet again nothing. He knew that someday everything would change, but this was not the day. He hoped and he prayed that something would happen, but not yet... Because even as an angel of the Lord, he was afraid. Dean had been thinking; maybe he was feeling something, something he had never felt before. He wanted to see if there was something between them, but he knew it was wrong. He knew he wasn't gay, he had never felt gay, not in that way.