Travis has a secret that he has to keep from his father in order to stay safe: he's in love with a boy. The boy he loves is insecure about himself, and hides the fact that he loves Travis back. The two boys have to date in secret. But everything changes when Travis's father finds out. Warning: Story contains abuse, swearing, slurs, homophobia, depression, suicidal thoughts and actions, and self harm.

THIS STORY IS DISCONTINUED I'm not gay, am I? Travis doesn't understand why he feels for only boys, it's a sin and he'll be sent to hell for it. His dad beats him mercilessly and just as Travis thinks the solution to his problems is to end it all, a bright light in the shape of Sal Fisher appears. Travis soon realises that there is always something worth living for and that he's more than the label his father gives him. But he doesn't know how long it's going to last.