** and so, the legacy I leave behind when I shuffle off this mortal coil is that of a footnote in a brain leak episode. ah. mental. speaking of, I'd like to formally apologise as a now 22 year old woman for my extremely mentally unwell teenage self being the poster child for parasocial attachments and that manifesting itself into writing incessantly about actual people! if you ever do come back to this, Ethan, I beg of you not to read this girthy monstrosity on a stream or read it ever actually, but if you force my hand to gouge out my own eyes and ears then so be it. "some of these chapter titles are really funny" yeah man I've got jokes. I've HAD jokes. and on your podcast, I WAS the joke (in a lighthearted and funny way dw fuck you guys but also dw it's not serious fuck you). that aside, I'm eternally grateful to you and Sean - and don't click onto my account to see any content about him either or I will bring a snickers to a fight (I won't sorry that's really mean) - for being the reasons for a smile on my face that was pretty hard to come by, back then. thank you for being here for more people than you'll ever know, and giving us so much of your time. you are both very lovely and I'll always adore your content; keep it leaky fellas x ** Some imagines about the not-so-blue boy! (I wrote these in like 2017/2018 and havent added any since, so these are a little outdated in terms of references and stuff. it might say I've updated it recently, but that's purely to add necessary trigger warnings cuz at the time those werent really included. also, if Ethan EVER does a fanfiction video and sees these...no u didnt ✨😌✨) Book cover by: @lazzyleni - COMPLETED -

seán is the guy. you know, the one guy that everybody gets along with, the one that nobody seems to have a problem with. the nice guy, the funny guy, the attractive guy, the smart guy, the guy who has every girl in the school (and even some of the boys) chasing after him. ethan is the new kid. and nobody ever likes the new kid. he's a soft, socially anxious, awkward boy, which makes him vulnerable to the many dickheads and bullies of the school. seán has been dating his boyfriend felix for four months and he's certain that nothing will come in between them. that is, until he's forced to show the new kid around the school.