Being insecure can be a crippling experience, especially when it drives away the person you love. The agony of not giving my girlfriend enough attention while dealing with my own demons is unbearable. I can feel the distance growing between me and my once-close partner, and it hurts more than words can describe. My insecurity stems from a deep-seated belief that I am not good enough, that I am a disappointment to those around me. I have always felt like the black sheep of the family, the never-seen son. I've always wondered why I never measure up, but now I know the reason, and it's a betrayal that cuts to my core. The pain of realizing that I am a secret shame my family kept from me, is excruciating. I can't accept it, and I feel like a bastard, unworthy of anyone's love, especially Coachella's. She's everything I am not, and I can't bear the thought of tarnishing her perfect life with my tainted presence. I fear that if I stick with her, I'll only end up making her feel the way I made my mother feel, like a failure. So, I pushed her away, unable to see that I'm only hurting her more. "You are such a bastard asshole, Izo!" I am though... Funny how I just learned that I am a bastard. And hearing it from her mouth... is the downfall of me. Started: Finished: Published: Status: COMING SOON Follow me on my socials for more updates. IG: smnthawsm Twitter: awsmbi FB: Samantha Claire Lim Radaza | awsmbi E-mail: claire.radaza02@gmail.com

Pushing someone I love away to keep her safe is a harrowing experience. It feels like my heart is being ripped out of my chest as I try to resist the urge to hold her close. Every moment with her is excruciating because I know that I am going to have to hurt her. I screamed for help, hoping that someone will hear me and take the burden off my shoulders, but no one seems to care. The girl I love heard my cries once, but I cannot let her in on the danger. I have to be strong, even if it means breaking my own heart. I would break just to protect her. I clenched my fist so tightly that my thumb tucked inside my palm, a silent cry for help that nobody sees. "Miso, I'm here!" I closed my eyes as I remember her eagerness to help. I wish you were still here, Czarina. But I need to do this. I'll break ten folds just to protect you. Started: Finished: Published: Status: COMING SOON Follow me on my socials for more updates. IG: smnthawsm Twitter: awsmbi FB: Samantha Claire Lim Radaza | awsmbi E-mail: claire.radaza02@gmail.com

Leaving someone I love for the sake of my own salvation is a pain that consumes me from the inside out. It's a feeling of helplessness and despair that suffocates me, leaving me gasping for air in a sea of regret and guilt. I thought I was doing the right thing, that by saving myself, I would be able to save her too. But I was wrong. She drowned. And now, all I feel is guilt. Guilt for not being able to save her, guilt for surviving when she didn't, guilt for not realizing how much she needed me until it was too late. All I want is to have her back, to tell her how sorry I am, and to make everything right again. But I know it's too late. The pain of losing her is a wound that will never fully heal, a constant reminder of what could have been, and what was lost. "I want you broken like how broken I am, Kahel. I loathe you." There was so much rage in her voice that I just want to breakdown right then and there. "Then I beg you to break me, Vica..." Started: Finished: Published: Status: COMING SOON Follow me on my socials for more updates. IG: smnthawsm Twitter: awsmbi FB: Samantha Claire Lim Radaza | awsmbi E-mail: claire.radaza02@gmail.com

The pain of being unable to move on from Shaniel, even after so many years, is like drowning in an endless sea of sorrow. It's a feeling of being stuck in time, unable to move forward or find peace. The memories of my first love linger like a stubborn stain, refusing to fade away no matter how much time passes. I know that I shouldn't hold onto the past, but the thought of letting go feels like a betrayal to the love that once was. It's as if I am trapped in a cycle of hopelessness and despair, unable to find a way out. I see the life my best friend and my ex-girlfriend have built together, and I know that I should be happy for them, but it's like a dagger to the heart. It's my karma for pursuing her, even though I knew my best friend had feelings for her first. I feel like the lotus from the dirty water, forever tainted by my past love and memories, and unable to rise above them. But then my window covered with a heavy curtain allowed a light to seep through that it blinded me for a second. "There's hope for us, Doc Pierce." Sasha giggled like it was ridiculous, but she sounded hopeful. And like a lotus from the dirty water...I wish to grow and find light against the murky water that I am in... Broken me can hope, right? Started: Finished: Published: Status: COMING SOON Follow me on my socials for more updates. IG: smnthawsm Twitter: awsmbi FB: Samantha Claire Lim Radaza | awsmbi E-mail: claire.radaza02@gmail.com

Pagod na si Drex sa malamig at madilim na buhay, kaya handa na sana siyang tapusin ito. Ngunit, hindi ito natuloy dahil kinailangan niyang sagipin ang isang babae. Laya woke up with no recollection of what happened. May amnesia siya. She later found herself under Drex's roof. He saved her. But, what if he realizes that the woman he sheltered is a murderer? Mas lalo lamang naging kumplikado ang lahat... lalo na't ramdam niya ang mainit na tensyon at atraksyon sa pagitan nilang dalawa. Started: December 20, 2024 Finished: November 19, 2025 Published: Status: COMPLETED Follow me on my socials for more updates. IG: smnthawsm Twitter: awsmbi FB: Samantha Claire Lim Radaza | awsmbi E-mail: claire.radaza02@gmail.com

Para sagipin ang kanilang ospital, kailangan ni Astrid pakasalan ang anak ng may-ari ng lupa, only to learn that she's marrying her patient, Ivan. Ang lalaking alam niya'y mahal na mahal pa rin ang yumaong girlfriend nito. Paanong hindi? She's his new therapist. Started: December 20, 2023 Finished: January 3, 2024 Published: UNDER HBP Status: COMPLETED Follow me on my socials for more updates. IG: smnthawsm Twitter: awsmbi FB: Samantha Claire Lim Radaza | awsmbi Email: claire.radaza02@gmail.com Book cover by Marc Aragona.

bedded by order of the billionaire billionaire Anthony Al'Ramiz left his homeland behind betrayed by the women he loved. he's hardened his heart and made his fortune-and now he is more powerful than ever,and vengeance is high on his agenda! seeing Athena again, he finds that the image he's held of a heartless temptress at odds with her drab robes and downcast eyes, but, immune to her sob story , he will take what he's owed! what will this ruthless billionaire do when he discovers the dept of Athena's innocence's?

When Liz Charleston's ex-best friend suddenly returns with a plan to take revenge on her, drama seems inevitable - but who knew revenge could be so handsome? ***** Two years ago Liz Charleston made the biggest mistake of her life by rejecting her best friend, the only guy she has ever cared about. Desperate to become popular and join the junior varsity cheerleading team, she breaks his heart. Two years later, Frank is back, transformed into Taylor Blackstone, the new kid from New York who has it all. He's taller, stronger and hotter than ever, with a long line of girls that have no idea who he really is - except Liz, the girl who betrayed him two years ago. And he is determined to make her regret ever pushing him away. [[word count: 100,000-150,000 words]]