This story talks about eating disorders, suicide, and death. If these things trigger you, then I advise you to skip this story. (The plot kinda gets confusing and a little out of order but that's ok) "Fat" is all that the haters have been calling Namjoon on Twitter. "Fat monster" "fatty". Namjoon tries to forget it, but he can't. He can't deal with The pain. He can't deal with The fact that he has suicidal thoughts. And with all the nightmares he has been having he is really suffering. Yet the other members have no idea what's he's really going through. Started. March 2018 Ended. June. 2018 ⚠️ i started this story when i was 12/13 so it's kinda bad and the grammar is kinda ehhh so it's kinda bad and doesn't have much of a GOOD plot line so yea [COMPLETED]

"HYUNG PLEASE! JEONGGUK IS COUGHING BLOOD!" when jeongguk falls ill his hyungs are there to catch him - literally - i used a lot of explicit language in this

Where BTS are sick or hurt and the other members look after them. What it says on the tin really. YES, YOU MAY HAVE SEEN THE COVER ART CHANGE. THAT'S BECAUSE I'M BACK IN MY BTS ERA, AND I'M CONSIDERING REWRITING THESE FICS ON MY AO3 ACCOUNT, littlespoonsebastian AYEEE #1 in 'bts sickfics' on 21/04/21 #4 in 'sickfics' on 04/05/21 #1 in 'illness' on 06/05/21 #1 in 'ill' on 28/10/21 #2 in... vomit??

She is sad She is hurt She is dying She is alone She is lonely She is a mess She is judged She is ignored She is suicidal She is stressed She is confused She is fucked up She is depressed She is misunderstood She is tired but still living She is hurt but won't show it She is screaming but is silent She is in pain but still smiling SHE IS ME WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS LANGUAGE THAY CAN BE UNCOMFORTABLE FOR READERS, ACTIONS THAT IS VIOLATE; SUICIDE, BULLY, ABUSE, ETC; THIS STORY ALSO CONTAINS SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND ACTIONS**IF YOU'RE UNCOMFORTABLE PLEASE CLICK OFF

| ♤ | ♡ | ◇ | ♧ | || A girl has jumped onto stage shooting to save popular Idol. || | Recently The idol group have been reciving a lot of hate, after rumours of rumours have started, sadly one member has been getting it worse. So much so it's developed into death threats. | On the 2nd concert day a shooter leaped onto main stage to shoot this member but failed as a fan stepped in the way. • little warning has hints or mentions mental health and negative things, please only read if you are comfortable with reading. Start - 24th october 2018 Ending one - finished Ending two - finished Top rankings - 1 in btsxreader - 28/11/18 1 in btsxreader - 28/4/19 2 in bts - 7/3/20 1 in btsfanfiction - 10/3/20 - Rankings - #jinbts • 3 - 13/11/18 #btsboys • 5 - 23/11/18 #btsjungkook • 1 - 28/11/18 #btsxreader • 1 - 3/12/18 #btsrm • 2 - 3/12/18 #kookie • 1 - 11/12/18 #btsjin • 1 - 15/12/18 #btsfanfic • 45 - 21/12/18 #btsjungkook • 18 - 21/12/18 #jinbts • 2 - 25/12/18 #jhope • 64 - 25/12/18 #btsjimin • 23 - 25/12/18 #jinbts • 1 - 24/1/19 #suga • 100 - 24/1/19 #btsboys • 3 - 6/2/19 #btsjhope • 31 - 21/2/19 #btsboys • 2 - 4/3/19 #Btsxreader • 1 - 28/4/19 #btsjhope • 1 - 6/5/19 #btssuga • 2 - 6/5/19 #angst • 73 - 6/5/19 #bts • 2 - 7/3/20 Rap monster 1 - 16 April Fan fiction 19 - 6 June Namjoon 6 - 28 feb Btsfanfiction - 1 10/3/20 Btsjimin - 1 - 24/3/20 - mile stones - 100 reads - 5/6/18 2000 reads - 2/12/18 4000 reads - 13/12/18 5000 reads - 16/12/18 7000 reads - 18/12/18 8000 reads - 22/12/18 9000 reads - 25/12/18 10,000 reads - 27/12/18 (I decided to stop here as I've now realised how massive the reads have grown)

"shut up you fucking slut"

Sadness warning...

"Your disgusting" they Said "Your fat" they Said I feeling hurt of my own hyung and jungkook

Tsukishima wonders why his teammates are so concerned about his habits, eating is overrated, right? Two endings...established relationship CONTENT WARNINGS: bulimia nervosa, body dysmorphia, anxiety, and suicide. If these are sensitive topics or issues for you please think before reading. Be warned, rewritten chapters will be largely from the perspective of the character looking back on themselves. Stay safe. Currently editing and rewriting, rewritten chapters will have an "E" after the title. I own none of the characters or images, only the storyline.