Who would have ever thought that the once brave and adventurous Dipper Pines would be broken and sobbing on the ground screaming for mercy to a force that only exists in his mind? Who would have known that a simple memorable summer in a strange town named Gravity Falls would leave mental scars on a twelve year old? Who would have known that three years later those scars still remain? And who would have thought that a girl with light hair and blue eyes would be such a big part in Dippers story? TW: this contains suicide, suicidal thoughts, panic and ptsd attacks. AUTHORS NOTE: WARNING, I DID WRITE THIS WHEN I WAS 15, SO PLEASE BE WARNED THIS DOESNT MAKE MUCH SENSE AT TIMES AND I DIDNT DO MUCH RESEARCH AT ALL SO READ AT YOUR OWN RISK. IF YOUR LOOKING FOR AN AGNST FIC, THIS IS A GOOD ONE BUT LIKE I SAID, IT DOESNT MAKE MUCH SENSE AND WAS WRITTEN JUST FOR THE SAKE OF TOURTUREING DIPPER.