After John is murdered, Paul has to learn to live without him, all while trying to sort through the memories of the relationship they had during their time with the Beatles.

Paul wakes up from a bad dream, and John comforts him.

Paul had always looked up to the most intimidating teddy boy in town, John Lennon. They were best friends, band mates, and maybe even a little more in time. When John is grieving over Julia's death, Paul realizes that maybe there's another side to him, a softer side. All he wants to do is help, but will this lead to more problems for the both of them?

In this alternate universe, John Lennon is a young adult struggling with his sexuality. After he realizes he isn't exactly straight he decides to visit a local gay strip club. There he meets Paul, a young dancer who captures the hearts of every client he's every danced for. At first John thinks their relationship is purely business. But over time their love blossoms. Can they withstand the challenges of being together?

John blows up in Paul's face after he kisses John's cheek in his time of mourning. Then, the extraordinary happens that neither of the two boys would ever expect. 《 XXXXX RATED M FOR MATURE! XXXXX 》

Paul never thought he could ever fall in love with another man, let alone his best friend. John on the other hand, couldn't believe it when he realized his feelings for a certain doe-eyed boy. Though, secret relationships are hard, and sometimes the wrong people find out. Sometimes, a partner might be disloyal. A relationship like this could change the world. **note,, this is so old. Like four years old. It's trash in my eyes and I don't even have the will to revise it. Enjoy at your own risk, but I'm publishing much better fanfiction with 4 more years of experience under my belt on ao3 under the same jlawad name.