Before reading this, you should know... This is not a happy story. There is no happy ending. Simply put, this is a chronological account of the abuse, neglect, and bullying I suffered at the hands of loved ones from birth to 17 years old. It does not include reflection. It is meant to be a recounting from my perspective at the time. When you read content from Birth to around 11 years old it is intended to sound like a young child is telling the story versus those written about events that occurred when I was older. Before embarking on writing this I considered how honest I wanted to be and what details I truly wanted and needed to share. Ultimately I chose to publish these things anonymously. I've taken some responsibility for hiding the identities of those I wrote about, but I did not protect them nearly as much as I protected myself. Over the years I've kept these stories secret because I love these people who hurt me. I believed I was loving them by not telling. But now that I'm an adult, and I understand love a little better, I realized that while I may have been making someone feel safe, I was not keeping me safe.

He was so close, his breath hit my lips. His eyes darted from my eyes to my lips. I stared intently, awaiting his next move. His lips fell near my ear. "Shut up and kiss me" He whispered roughly. A chill shot up my spine. I pulled back, staring at his eyes and leaned in.. ********** What happens when Alexis Dawson- "residential loser" of Redwood High, agrees to help Redwood High's player, Aaron Walker. How can she stop herself from falling for him? But it isn't all love and romance, Alexis has her own secret. Join them on the journey filled with jealousy, betrayal, trust, friendship and love. A little favour just got a whole lot more complicated.

the thoughts of others terrify me... so here's mine. (#1 poet - 08.03.19) (#1 sadpoems - 08.04.19) (#2 poem - 08.11.19) (#1 thoughtsandfeelings - 08.14.19)

A young girl struggling with her life and all she did wrong was being different... Her faith took a path no one could ever predict and made her go through the darkest moments of her life. How would she survive?