The things I knew that were once unethical, were bound to be saintly. The dreams I dreamt once upon a time, seemed to be an epitome of nightmares. The heart I thought I stole long ago, always belonged to someone else. The crimes I have committed all my life, became a handful of lessons that I ought to learn. The world I looked up to once, became a mortal enemy of mine. The family I thought would disown me, fought my battles for me. The life I never imagined I'd live, sadly it became a life I'd rather live than die. Lastly, the guilt I carried in me for the each and every second of my living, was a poison spreading and gradually banishing everything around me. Clearly, I was bounded by the past! Never have I imagined for the galaxy of guilt in me to steadily transform into a matter of great; Love. No, it wasn't for my dead sister, or for the woman I once claimed to love, or for my money-grubbing father, or even for the woman who was destined for me. Majestically, it was for Someone who I never ever thought it would be for; My Maker. Well, it's mind-blowing how the ugliest of matters bring out the most beautiful of articles! -Guilt is a gift from Allah, warning you that what you are doing is violating your soul.- ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Started: 22/12/2017, 7:15 pm. [All Rights Reserved, froward 2017]

Doubt unwinds how humans can create personas to fit into society and forget to love themselves. The story moves around two people and the choices they question, which were made for them. Best friends stuck with insecurities, but will stand by each other in any circumstances. One has mother issues, whereas the other only has a mother to live for. Not your regular north and south, but definitely not your ice-cream and waffle. One will crack jokes at the most random of times, and the other will not even laugh, but both are suckers for biryani. One might suck at Urdu, and the other only freaks out in it, but both care about one person. One is born in Pakistan, and the other is born in America, but both are Pakistani. One is over-excited, and the other is calm as the wind, but both are socially damaged. One is a creative bird, and the other is the virtual freak, but both hate biology. One is head over heels for Pakistani music, and the other doesn't even understand half the lyrics, but both love Sajjad Ali. One is naïve, whereas the other is silly, but both are mature at the right moment. One reads the ingredients of everything while the other makes his own, but, again, both are Halal oddities in a Haram world. She was Ezzah Mahir, and this her journal. Now available on Amazon and in Pakistan.

Childhood sweethearts. Sounds romantic and to an extent even poetic. Two people, forever together. Or are they? Firdaus and Aman have been in love with each other for as long as they can remember, but life doesn't always go as planned. When he goes abroad to achieve his dreams, he leaves behind more than just his home. He leaves his heart with the only girl he has ever loved. Years later when he comes back, life plays a cruel joke when he finds her spiralling down a road of drug abuse. Looking for answers, he unravels the truth behind what happened in the years that came between them. With that he vows to fix her, and gradually takes her under his wing. But can his love pull her out of the cavernous depths of darkness?

Every night when the lights go out and the sea sets its journey to the shore, the images behind her eyes turn crimson with blood and ignite with the charcoal darkness. Every morning when the sun greets the sky hello, her daughter whispers goodbye in her ears and promises to come back again as her lissome fingers slip away with the early breeze. A story of brutal pain and an even more wicked truth.

♡Spiritual. Humor. Romance. Action♡ Zachariah is an agent, A little reckless and spends most of the time regretting his actions, but nevertheless a great agent. Sara has always been the good girl all her life. She always tries to do the right thing and never fails to pray on time. What happens when an unexpected event turns her life upside down leaving her scarred and broken....and even more what happens when Zachariah gets the most strangest condition of all with his next mission? ................... All that he ever needed Allah knew. And all what she ever needed Allah knew. So when the time was right He sent them to each other. Because he needed her innocence and she needed his strength. He needed the love that was set in the deepest treasures of her heart and she needed to heal and so with that Allah blessed his heart with hers and hers with his.

Their love was like a wildfire. Once spread, there was no stopping them. What started as an innocent glance became the magnitude of their flame. * * * In a country, where justice had no value and freedom was suppressed, lived two souls. Lies tore them apart, hatred planted a seed in their hearts, families plotting against each other, and a tale of forbidden love. One was born from filth, but struggled to make his name and save himself from the tainted words of his people. The other was pure in every way, her lips hushed the secrets that laid behind her eyes and the pain that resided in her heart. Adar was not like the rest of the villagers. He was a prince in his own way, looking for his queen. A village of evil, people of danger, relatives of believers come together to create the heart-wrenching tale of Adar and Rabiya. •Cover made by @rukswrites• [Featured by Wattpad]

ZARKHAN ALI AWAN (AGE 25) A feudal lord , a business man and conquerer .He believed in owning everything he liked , if he couldnt get it, he would destroy it .He had an ego and temper which rivaled his father's . AIN NAQVI(AGE 18) A young innocent girl , who was always sheltered . the death of her parents took her to the place,which would change her life forever . What will happen ,when a guy she thinks of as a monster end up wanting her.... A girl was standing in the garden ,talking to the gardener about flowers of different kind present there . the gardener was busy trimming the steps as he answered all the questions of the young girl .he didnt rise his eyes once to look at her while answering. " Does this plant produce flowers ?" she asked moving towards a plant . before she could get her answer, HE came and seethed at the gardener to leave,who was closer to her age . the gardener quickly scrambled away . She felt a shiver run through her seeing his eyes , they were going red in anger ..... (Assalamu alaikum readers!its time to start a new story . hope that you all will like it )

''You are the drug I was craving for'', his husky voice echoed the room. I stumbled backwards, with heart racing at a devastating speed and my chest pounding out of fear-his fear. He inched closer, close enough that I could breathe his air, a mixture of alcohol and smoke. Recklessly, his tough hand reached for my neck, his eyes droopy with lust. ''S..stop, please'', I managed to choke out with tears welling up in my eyes, only to be pushed further against the wall, he laughed at my tears, priding his dominance, and with yet another harsh move, he took away what was my life. ~~~~~~~~~~~ Surely the combo of drugs & weapon is lethal. *WARNING* The story contains following topics so read at your own risk. # Crime scenes # Foul language # Drug abuse # Mental torture # Steamy R-rated content

" And warn them of the day of intense regret, when the matter shall have been decided; and they are (now) in negligence and they do not believe." - Quran. There are very less of us who can pinpoint their own wrong deeds and even lesser who work harder to make them right before we could cry over them and regret them. Similarly forgiving is hard but admitting your sins and then sincerely apologizing just to achieve the forgiveness is even harder. He was lost in the pit of darkness, he believed that this world is eternal, he forgot the real meaning of life, by name he was definitely Muslim but by deed...? But it doesn't take much longer when Allah tighten his hold, and only the sensible ones can get the 'message' in the moment, the few are there who falls in front of him and ask for his mercy. A sincere call is all just it takes, after all HE is the most merciful of all. *** Highest Ranking: Spiritual #24 03/09/16 Spiritual #28 05/08/16 Spiritual #53 19/07/16 Spiritual #61 16/07/16 Spiritual #71 27/06/16 Spiritual #96 03/05/16 Cover credit: Hershey-z