❝dear lord, look after michael.❞ [lowercase intended]

(Lashton Fanfiction/5SOS) <3 {completed}

Malum One Shot (beware of tears)

Luke Hemmings never loves himself, if anything, he hates himself more than anyone. And that turn into a bad case of self-harming. But Ashton Irwin loves Luke Hemmings. He loves all about Luke, even the littlest things about Luke. And he promised himself that he would always protect Luke. But when things turn unexpectedly worse, could Ashton saves Luke?

Meet Luke Hemmings, a boy who spends most of his hours regretting his own life. He wanted to end it all; the bullying, the teasing, and most of all, the loneliness. It became too much for the poor blonde, that he began to suffer from many things. But there was one thing that kept him from ending his own life. One boy who turned his entire life around. The boy who Luke Hemmings fell in love with. Calum Hood.

(boyxboy) (5sos fanfic) Ashton Irwin - Member of 5 seconds of summer. you might think of him as happy, bubbly, joking around constantly, never stops smiling, and just a happy guy in general. But this was all just a stupid act for Ashton. you see.. Ashton self harms. none of the boys knew - he had had plenty of practice hiding it. he starved him self, cut, and cried him self to sleep every night. also - he was hopelessly in love with his band member and best friend, Michael Clifford. Michael starts to notice that things are a bit off with him and is desperate to find out why. (as I said before this has boyxboy material in it so if you don't like it don't read it)

Ashton is okay right now. He's always like this after a bad bout. He starts off saying that the world is his oyster and he loves everyone, but when the energy and fresh success fades, so does he. Luke knows. He knows about all of Ashton's problems. He knows about the time Ashton was bullied nearly to the brink, the family deaths and friend losses, and the ups and downs, the latter of which seem to be more common lately. It's been so easy lately for Ashton to slip after a joke gone wrong, or a jab on Twitter. Ashton always says he's sorry, repeating it again and again if only to convince himself. Luke knows he's sorry, knows that he can't help it. And he'll sit by the bathtub for hours, holding Ashton, to make sure that he knows someone loves him. None of the other boys know. Ashton couldn't bring himself to tell them and face their disapproving stares too, and he wouldn't let Luke tell them, so he's stuck in this half state of secrecy and confession to Luke. Ashton hasn't gone too far yet, not far enough that Luke can't patch him up with gauze, antibiotics, and a long hug. But someday, someday, Luke knows Ashton won't be able to take it anymore, and Ashton will die. And Luke will be all alone.