"manihlapinatapai" (n). a look shared by two people, each wishing that the other one would initiate something they both desire but which neither wants to begin ------------------------ all you have ever known was pain; the pain of losing everything and everyone. so you decided to shut it off and shut everybody out, but little did you know you'd find yourself struggling to regain that power when you come across the most feared man in the galaxy. power runs through him, he feeds off it. but so do you. •suggested 17+ •mature content •trigger warning

Kylo Ren x Reader JL-0819 can remember images from a life before having been kidnapped by the First Order, before being forced to become a stormtrooper. Even with this knowledge, it is not enough to cause her to defy the organization that she so faithfully serves. But when Kylo Ren discovers her deepest secret, she must choose between the past she can only vaguely remember and becoming someone that truly matters.

COMPLETED. UN-EDITED ♟♟♟♟♟♟♟♟♟♟♟♟ " A strange path, you have decided to follow." It had all started because of one simple, almost insignificant distress call from the planet of Tatooine. No one could have predicted that would lead to a flaw in the mighty First Order, for a spark of greater hope in the Resistance, and a change in Kylo Ren's cold heart. What was supposed to be a simple kidnapping became a forbidden, problematic romance. | 150,000+ words | December 30, 2019- August 1, 2020 I do not own any Star Wars characters, places, or scenes used in this fanfiction, they belong to their rightful owners. And you own yourself. Made-up scenes and original characters are mine.