Phil doesn't talks. Well, not anymore. The last time he said something, was when he didn't hate himself. And that was a long time ago. But now, everything is different. He must struggle with depression, whilst new boy Dan Howell desperately attempts to win him over. [Warning: this could be triggering at some points]

(Warning, self-harm and violence.) Dan Howell and Phil Lester have been through a lot of bad things in their sixteen years of living, things that will scar them forever, mentally and physically. When they find each other they feel happy together, but things get worse. The thing that they want to know is.. was their relationship a blessing or a curse?

Dan's starting at new school. He never fit in at his old one, but when he meets a new friend, he finally starts to feel like he belings somewhere.

Phil is completely broken. he has many problems. the biggest is Selective Mutism, meaning he refuses to speak at all. because of this, he hasnt spoken for nearly four years. he has post traumatic stress distorder, anxiety, depression, and a eating disorder. he attends college, but decides he sits in the back in every one of his classes, and due to his overprotective aunt, is forced to attend therapy. Phil knows its not working and probably never will. what happens when Dan, an outgoing, generally happy boy sees Phil, and is completely compelled to fix him at first sight? can he do it? in the end, will he be able to fix Phil, or will he fail? TRIGGER WARNING: this story does have of eating disorders, depression, and self harm. so please, if you are sensitive to any of those things, do not read. <3

Remember Phil from High school? That kid with Black hair, blue eyes? The one who sat quietly at the back of the room, handed homework in on time and ate by himself? Yes. I remember him. And little did I know, he would mean as much to me as he does now. Little did I know, my future would be spent with him. .

Anna is best friends with Dan Howell and Phil Lester. After a horrific night at Anna's and her ex-boyfriends shared flat, Anna ends up moving in with Dan and Phil. It seems like sunshine and happiness from here right? Wrong. Anna is a terribly broken girl. She has severe depression and very bad anxiety. She also self-harms way too often. from horrible bumps in the road to being undoubtedly in love, Anna's life is... Eventful.

My name is Daniel James Howell, call me Dan. I'm 23 years old and for most of my life, I lived alone, but I was never lonely. I lived a normal life, although I have a rather...odd talent. I can learn a whole person's life story in a glance. I'm not sure how or why but all I know is I've lived a thousand lives throughout my lifetime. When I look into a person's eyes, I see their whole life flash before my eyes. Of course I've used this to my advantage with job interviews to dates, but I've always hidden it away since I can remember. For some reason, I knew it wasn't normal, and-so, I've lived my whole life with this secret. You don't have to believe me, but this is My story. So if you choose to think I'm lying, so be it. Like I said, I have a normal life...well, had. That all changed exactly one year ago. I remember the day I meant him. Philip Michael Lester. He changed my life forever.

Dan is a dancer, but it's his best kept secret. Moving to a new college results in new friends, new hobbies and a new outlook in life; but what does it really mean to be human? A series of strange and seemingly unconnected events unfold that all seem to link back to Dan's mysterious new boyfriend. etcetc phan with kickthestickz This story carries some warnings, however they're p much all spoilers except non-graphic violence and injury on one occasion, and non-described minor character death. No major character death and no self harm. Please message me if you think you'll need to know the TWs! To avoid spoilers, you can give me a list of things you don't want to read for whatever reason and I'll let you know if they're in the fic or not :)