Sometimes you don't realize your mistakes until it's too late to take them back...

words are so small but never so easy. [nct series #1] ©chogiwae

WARNING: mentions of suicide, a little bit of self harm. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!! This is an angst ff btw so prepare your box of tissues :"). an english FF. fun fact : all of the chapter titles are my fav songs! do search those song and listen to it 💖💖💞💖💖 fact: -english is not my first language so my writing skill would be very low compare to other authors/writers. so if you find any grammar mistakes do inform me about it as i want to improve myself🥰🍭 the purpose of writing this story was to give awaraness to people about bipolar disorder and what it feels like to have a bipolar disorder. i was also diagnosed with bipolar disorder but with a mild version which is cyclothymia. plus i usually write this story whenever i'm having a depressive episode.

[x] completed ____ "Promise me something," "Anything," "Promise me that you won't leave," "I promise I won't," Little did I know that was the biggest lie and and a big mistake of a thought that he would stay. ____ I really suck at descriptions but please do give this book a try :") **This book may contain curse words, sexual references and self-harming. Take note before reading this.

"everyone says first loves last forever, but what if they don't?" nct mark + haechan [started: 13.5.18] [finished: 15.5.18] [edited: 24.4.19] © lavenderhyuck

Even if I'm sorry now, even if I regret it now, nothing changes. "Please come back as if nothing happened"

"they're daffodils. i remember you said you loved them." "oh. well, not anymore." -- just another hanahaki au. started 05.28.18 completed 06.04.18

In which Jaehyun keeps texting his dead boyfriend started: 07/25/19 ended: 08/07/19

"would you care if i disappeared?" "...no"

donghyuck sends messages to his lost love.