Izaya questions all he ever works and lives for. Then when finding the answer he looses himself completely. Spiraling into a depression he can't pull himself out of. He laughs at himself when found at his lowest point by the last person he wanted to be seen by Warning// deep fanfiction. Trigger warning for some people don't like don't read. Thank you

Its been years since that time and he almost recovered, almost re-healed, but open wounds bleed again in an onslaught of tears. Only his salvation. Only his last hope. Only, if only he knew.

Izaya finds Shizuo badly injured and then brings him to Shinra's to get him help. But he can't seem to separate himself from his injured enemy.

Based after Durarara!! x2 Episode 12 After what Shizuo heard on the news, he couldn't believe what happened. When he heard it, his heart dropped. He just realized, did he actually love the person he hated for so long?

Izaya is sick and Shizuo is just finding out (first Shizaya fanfic *don't judge*) ((I am physically incapable of writing smut, so have some of the fluffy stuff!!)) Disclaimer: I own none of the characters!! *sad face* Also the story's finished, just in case you were wondering :P {thank u guys for all the comments and votes!!! ily<3}

*******Completed******** After some "unknown" incidents, Izaya Orihara forgets himself, the people around him, and his relationships. Although he has no desire of taking care of his enemy, Shizuo somehow gets put in charge of this very task. *DISCLAIMER: I do not own Durarara!!, nor any of it's characters. I only own the plot of this story. *WARNING: This contains BoyxBoy and if for some reason you can't handle this, this story is not for you. No smut.

"I've been having that dream over and over again... The flashback from when we went to school together. 'The future will always be death... And I don't like losing, either, Which makes it all the worse.' The most humane thing that... the flea... has ever told me." •°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°•°• "Is death a punishment or a reward? All my lovely humans know the pain, can feel it; what does it feel like? A burden? Bliss? Tell me, Shizuo, can a monster like you suffer? Can... I suffer? What is it like...? ... Show me." /**I DO NOT OWN DURARARA. OBVIOUSLY. ANY UND ALL ART USED IN THIS BOOK BELONG TO ME, DO NOT USE WITHOUT PERMISSION**/

Shizuo and Izaya are now living together but they still have their outside life. They find out they are getting a new neighbor and he has taken a liking to Izaya. How will Izaya feel and how will shizuo react?

Being sarcastic and arrogant become a trade mark for Izaya. However, no one knew what's the deepest secret that he hold deep inside. What will Shizuo do when he know about it?

Izaya has an abusive father who forces Izaya to live with him and only lets him out to work. Izaya puts up with it just to protect his family. Shinra is the only one who knows, and is Izaya's best friend. Shizuo of course, is Izaya 's hopeless crush who goes too far one day and causes the flea's mask to crumble, revealing a face littered in huge, ghastly scars.... This is my first fanfic, so please do not eat me alive!! DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN DURARARA!! OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS!! Nor do I own the cover art. Literally none of this is mine except for the obsessive fanfic writing. That's it