(Completed) Emily is suffering from anorexia; she just won't admit it to herself or anyone else. She doesn't want nor need any help, according to herself. Carter sees her struggle. He wants to help her. Will Emily finally accept help? And will she accept the help from someone she would have never imagined? And what will happen when she discovers that there's more to Carter too? ............... This book is about suffering and not admitting it. It's about getting help from a surprising source and realizing the feelings you get in the making. It's about sorrow, love, hatred, and a lot more! The book spans from when they're 17/18 to when they're 37, and you get an insight into their lives for a long period of time. I really hope you enjoy my book! Please let me know what you think! ::::::::::::::: TRIGGER WARNING This book is about anorexia and eating disorders. If you suffer from anorexia or any other eating disorder I do NOT recommend you reading this book. Though it is about recovery, it is graphic and you are in the thoughts of an anorexic. This may cause a trigger. Please know and respect your own boundaries and limits:) (Nr. 2 in eatingdisorders, August 12)

Just the normal life of a teenager girl secretly struggling with an eating disorder.

Aubrey has always been the ultimate target for bullies at her school. All she wants is to be good enough for once in her life. What happens when she goes online and finds a website called 'the weight game' where it teaches people quick ways to shed weight? and she takes the tips that tell her to fast, and purge? Never put someone down, because it will never help you reach the top. And never call a person fat, because you never know what they will do in order to prove you wrong...........

~*~ Warning this story may be triggering!~*~ In today's world, skinny is beautiful. Skinny people get it better, because they are beautiful. Where ever you look, you'll see a skinny woman, or a fit man. But what happens when you don't have that Ideal body? Do you work out? Diet? Starve yourself to the point where you can count your ribs? What will you do to achieve that "beautiful body?" Follow one girl on her journey struggling with a eating disorder. Feel the pain she does when she looks in the mirror and feels so wrong about her body. Learn how society warped her mind to believing there is something wrong with her. Learn the meaning of true beauty.

She has obsessive-compulsive disorder. He finished all the required classes for graduating by his freshman year. She trains in ballet four hours a day, five days a week. He doesn’t understand people. She’s scared of waking up. He’s scared of not knowing the right answers. Two entirely different people, both driven together by their fear… of life. (Cover by GoldLipstick) A/N: Moet is pronounced Mo-ay.

"Why do you do this to yourself? You have everything: a father who loves you, friends, money, activities. I want to know why you threw it all away." Why? You want to know why? Step into a tanning booth and fry yourself for two or three days. After your skin bubbles and peels off, roll in coarse salt, then pull on long underwear woven from spun glass and razor wire. Over that goes your regular clothes, as long as they're tight. Smoke gunpowder and go to school to jump through hoops, sit up and beg, and roll over on command. Listen to the whispers that curl into your head at night, calling you ugly and fat and stupid and bitch and whore and worst of all "a disappointment." Puke and starve and cut and drink because you don't want to feel any of this. Puke and starve and cut and drink because you need an anesthetic and it works. For a while. But then the anesthetic turns into poison and by then it's too late because you're mainlining it now, straight into your soul. It is rotting you and you can't stop. Look in the mirror and find a ghost. hear every heartbeat scream that everysinglething is wrong with you. "Why?" is the wrong question. Ask "Why not?" **TRIGGER WARNING** This story contains the main character self harming herself, starving herself/anorexia, blood, depression, and dark thoughts.

Because sometimes one person's wish is another person's battle. [lowercase intentional]

basically just my diary detailing my daily struggle with an eating disorder. i'm not pro anything! if you have an ED or are struggling with one, please do not read this! start weight: 122lbs height: 5ft4

not pro anything, this is for me and only me. imagines about when i get skinny