"manihlapinatapai" (n). a look shared by two people, each wishing that the other one would initiate something they both desire but which neither wants to begin ------------------------ all you have ever known was pain; the pain of losing everything and everyone. so you decided to shut it off and shut everybody out, but little did you know you'd find yourself struggling to regain that power when you come across the most feared man in the galaxy. power runs through him, he feeds off it. but so do you. •suggested 17+ •mature content •trigger warning

Both the Supreme Leader of the First Order and the General of the Resistance are desperate to find you for very different reasons. Supreme Leader Snoke sends Kylo Ren to retrieve you and bring you back to him willingly. Too well known throughout the galaxy, Kylo knows he can't go after you without being recognized. Resurrecting the boy he once was. He sets out to find you, not as Kylo Ren, but as Ben Solo. The mission doesn't go as planned when he finds himself irrevocably drawn to you. Kylo Ren/Ben is torn between the light and the dark more than ever before. His family thinks you're the only one that can bring him back to the light and you'll be damned if you let them down. 🦋 COMPLETE 🦋

The King and Queen of Calidum have married you off to the Supreme Leader of the First Order to protect their people. Although fearful, you use what little hope you have to try your best to survive through the newfound predicament you're in... only to find out the Force has more in store for you and Kylo Ren. ORIGINAL STORY: COMPLETED (2019) PREQUEL STORY: COMPLETED (2020) SEQUEL STORY: ONGOING (2021) .・゜゜・　FYI　・゜゜・． ○ THIS IS A READER INSERT ○ NSFW (18+) + ANGST ○ ALTERNATE UNIVERSE .・゜゜・　RANKS　・゜゜・． ○ #1 in the KyloRen tag (6/16/19) ○ #1 in the Kylo tag (6/16/19) ○ #5 in the StarWars tag (2/7/20) ○ #1 in the SW tag (7/12/20) ○ #1 in the BenSolo tag (9/12/20) ○ #1 in the KyloxReader tag (1/5/21) ○ #4 in the AlternateUniverse tag (1/5/21) ○ #1 in the Kylo tag (2/20/21) ○ #3 in the KyloRen tag (3/24/21)