You've recently become a nurse serving the First Order. So far your life was uneventful and unimportant...you felt useless in a sense. Everything changes once you become responsible for the well-being of your first commander; Kylo Ren. Will he remain loyal to the dark side? Or will you be the one to pull him towards the light? [ Fluff & Smut ] WARNINGS: Bloodplay, sexual assault, violence, death, heavy smut. If any of this makes you uncomfortable please do not read. Disclaimer: This was my very first time writing a fan fiction, I will say I was very inexperienced and I somewhat rushed the writing process. Now that this is completed, I've learned so much and I hope to improve my work in the future! Enjoy!! XOXO

"manihlapinatapai" (n). a look shared by two people, each wishing that the other one would initiate something they both desire but which neither wants to begin ------------------------ all you have ever known was pain; the pain of losing everything and everyone. so you decided to shut it off and shut everybody out, but little did you know you'd find yourself struggling to regain that power when you come across the most feared man in the galaxy. power runs through him, he feeds off it. but so do you. •suggested 17+ •mature content •trigger warning

⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ "𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖 𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙡𝙞𝙖𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙮 𝙞𝙣 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚'𝙨 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙡 𝙢𝙚𝙖𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙩𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙚𝙭𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚." ➢ ➢ Kylo Ren has been wounded following the final battle in The Force Awakens. As luck would have it, they're forced to crash land on his home planet of Chandrila for the closest medical treatment. Once he sees you - the young, beautiful and naïve princess - everything changes. The First Order becomes stationed there as your emotions override logic and you inevitably fall for him. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ WARNING! This book depicts a toxic relationship with actions that I do not condone. There is abuse. It is not suited for all audiences. Originally Completed: September 2020 Editing completed: March 2023