Neil was caught between a hard place and a rock. His lungs heaved as he desperately tried to suck in air, but to no avail. He couldn't breath. Tears ran down his face as he smothered his strangled sobs against his pillow. He didn't know how long he could keep up this act. All he wanted was Todd. Todd couldn't sleep. He hadn't been able to for the past few nights. All he could think about was Neil. His lips as they closed over a cigarette. His brown eyes sparkling as he practiced his lines as Puck. His wet hair and how it clung to his neck after a shower. Todd squeezed his eyes tight as he tried to will away the wicked images. He shouldn't be staring at his best friend like that. It was unnatural. It meant he was a fairy. Yet Todd couldn't help but stare. A story of two boys coming together, overcoming some of life's obstacles, and falling in love with each other; until one is tragically taken away.

i whisper with my lips close to your ear, i have loved many women and men, but i love none better than you. o i have been dilatory and dumb, i should have made my way straight to you long ago, i should have blabb'd nothing but you, i should have chanted nothing but you. -walt whitman, to you ~~~~~~~~ basically just the plot of dead poets society but if neil and todd were a thing

Bowie, baggy pants, and boy problems. Welcome to Welton Academy, 1988. Todd Anderson is a hopeless romantic, closeted and tragically in love with his roommate. Neil Perry is an outgoing stud who is equally as obsessed. Charlie Dalton is rooting from afar. Being queer in the eighties, especially in a catholic boys boarding school, might not be the most pleasant experience. The "gay plague" is making a sweep and riots are happening blocks away. While the fight for freedom continues, Todd struggles with his own boy battles.

1960. note style. neil always receives a note in the five centuries of verse book just before each meeting from a signed, "to my rose." with all of the members of the dead poets society making fun of him for the letters, neil decides to ask their help of who it is and well, maybe it's one of their own. 𝐍𝐄𝐈𝐋 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐑𝐘 & 𝐓𝐎𝐃𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍 -s

"you're so small." as if to prove his point, louis squeezed harry tightly in his arms, and harry just scrunched up a little bit, snuggling his head impossibly farther into louis' chest. "my pretty paper doll." and when louis squeezed him again, placing a shaky, yet warm kiss on harry's cold forehead, harry felt his heart feel that way again, he felt love. a soft flutter, that even the most self control in the world couldn't stop. he loved louis. he loved him even though he didn't want to, he really didn't. okay, maybe a little. *** 1ST PLACE IN THE HOLIDAY 2014 BROMANCE AWARDS FOR FAMOUS LARRY STORIES. #2 in Fanfiction #1 in One Direction

Since getting into contact with his brother over the last couple of years, Milo Fleamont Potter has entered a whole other world of adventure, laced with trouble and not to mention immense danger. However, he regrets none of it as it continues to bring the brothers closer than they've ever been. After Harry agrees never to keep any secrets from his older brother, Milo is filled with guilt as he has discovered secret after secret and has yet to share any of them with Harry, leaving their relationship strained once more. Fourth year proves to be Milo's busiest year yet, with training to become illegal animagi with the Weasley twins and Lee Jordan, maintaining his secret relationship with Cedric Diggory, and being caught completely off guard when Remus Lupin shows up as the new Defence Against the Dark Arts Professor. With notorious mass murderer Sirius Black escaping from Azkaban, Milo finds himself uncovering secrets that he wasn't even looking to find. [Cover by -voidlegends]

[Book 2 :Brotherhood Series] After an eventful second year, Milo Fleamont Potter was looking forward to the summer, extra time to spend with his brother and bond. However, Harry doesn't return a single letter, leaving his older brother discouraged and somewhat bitter. When the Weasley twins invite him over for a little summer fun, the twins introduce him to a very special item that unbeknownst to all of them is a part of Milo's family history and his own legacy. He feels a special connection to it and begins to unravel the secrets behind it. But as he returns to Hogwarts, he learns why Harry hasn't responded to his letters and if there wasn't enough drama centered having Gilderoy Lockhart as the new Defence Against the Dark Arts Professor, the students and professors of Hogwarts learn that the Chamber of Secrets has been opened. Enemies of Heir Beware. [Cover by -voidlegends]

[Book One: Brotherhood Series] There was no mystery to Milo Fleamont Potter, even if he was not the Boy-Who-Lived. He was the boy-who-survived. He was the boy that lost his parents and in many ways, lost his brother the same night that Voldemort attacked the Potter household. He was not graced with a scar, he did not bore a striking resemblance to his parents, but he held their stride and their attitude, even at a young age. A prophecy was not thrust upon him, but he had his own destiny to fulfill. [Cover by -voidlegends ]

Cassiopeia Black, twin to Sirius Black, daughter to Walburga and Orion Black. Cassiopeia has never been one for discriminating against muggles, muggleborns, etc. The complete opposite to her family, except a select few. Her and Sirius are the family disappointments, the rebellious two. The thing is, Cassiopeia is nowhere near as rebellious as her family seem to think. [marauders era] [trigger warning: themes of abuse, assault, foul language]

The instinct not to breathe underwater is so strong that it overcomes the agony of running out of air. No matter how desperate you are, you won't inhale until you're on the verge of losing consciounsness. Sirius knew that. He stood there, staring down to the black, cold water and pondering, would it be easier just to jump. He was on the edge, not just of the quay but of his own mind and sanity. The fall wouldn't kill him. The waves would. ... This is a Remus x Sirius Hogwarts years fanfiction I started writing a while back, in wich Sirius struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts. Remus tries his best to be there for his best friend, but his state of mind isn't the healthiest either. Contains triggering stuff, please don't read if you know you can't put up with stuff like ABUSE, SUICIDE, strong language or VIOLENCE. Also, all of this is based on the characters of the Harry Potter series. The cover picture is from tumblr and I added the name of this fic on it, so I do not own it. All of this is written by me, partly based on some of the events from my own life and suicidal thoughts I've had a long time ago, so please don't copy the storyline as it's partly very personal. Hope you'll like it