Everyone says high school is hell. For Riley, it started with a girl named Billie. When Riley is assigned to help the new girl at school, she doesn't expect much. Billie is quiet, strange, always scribbling in that journal she won't let anyone touch. But something about her-her sharp wit, her soft voice, her secrets-draws Riley in. As they spend time together on a class project, Riley starts to uncover the shadows Billie hides behind her silence. Nightmares. Disappearances. Cold, dead stares. Still, Riley can't walk away-not when Billie starts to trust her. Not when Riley starts to care more than she should. But everything unravels when a terrifying event exposes the truth about Billie's mental health. As reality blurs and rumors burn through the halls of their school, Riley is left with one question: If she keeps loving Billie through all of it-will she survive it herself? ••• • #2 in comeoutandplay on 8.28.25

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ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴀ ᴄᴏʟᴅ ꜱᴏᴜʟ ᴍᴇᴇᴛꜱ ᴀ ᴡᴀʀᴍ ᴏɴᴇ, ꜱʜᴇ ɢᴀɪɴꜱ ᴀɴ ᴇɴᴛɪʀᴇʟʏ ɴᴇᴡ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴘᴇᴄᴛɪᴠᴇ ᴀ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ᴇɪʟɪꜱʜ ꜰᴀɴ ꜰɪᴄ

ɪ ɴᴏᴅ, ᴄʜᴏᴋɪɴɢ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛᴇᴀʀꜱ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ᴇʏᴇꜱ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ɪ ʀᴇꜰᴜꜱᴇ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴛ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ꜱᴇᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴄʀʏ ʏᴇᴛ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ. "ꜰᴜᴄᴋ" ɪ ꜱʜᴀᴋᴇ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀᴅ "ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ɪᴍ ꜰᴜᴄᴋɪɴɢ ʙᴇɢɢɪɴɢ" ꜱʜᴇ ꜱᴄᴏꜰꜰᴇᴅ ᴀꜱ ɪꜰ ꜱʜᴇ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ꜱᴇᴇ ᴍᴇ ᴛʀʏɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ʜᴇʀ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴇ "ʙᴇɢɢɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴢʏᴀ? ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʏᴏᴜ?" ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ ᴀ ɢɪʀʟ ᴡʜᴏ ᴍᴀɴɪᴘᴜʟᴀᴛᴇꜱ ᴍʏ ᴇᴍᴏᴛɪᴏɴꜱ ᴀꜱ ɪꜰ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴘᴜᴘᴘᴇᴛꜱ; ᴘᴜʟʟɪɴɢ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴛʀɪɴɢꜱ ᴀꜱ ɪꜰ ɪᴛ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ. ꜱʜᴇ ᴛᴇᴀʀꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴀᴘᴀʀᴛ, ᴍᴀᴋɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ʙʟᴇᴇᴅ ᴀꜱ ꜱʜᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʙꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜᴇʀ ᴡᴏʀᴅꜱ. ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ʜᴇʀ ᴛᴏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍᴇ, ʜᴏᴡᴇᴠᴇʀ, ɪᴛ ɪꜱ ᴇᴠɪᴅᴇɴᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʜᴇʀ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡᴀꜱɴ'ᴛ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ. ᴀ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ᴇɪʟɪꜱʜ ꜰᴀɴ ꜰɪᴄ.

angel monarch, a world famous poet, gets asked to help write a song with finneas o'connell and billie eilish after moving to new york. the only problem is, angel's identity is hidden. writing a song proves pretty difficult but they make it work. over the weeks angel catches feelings, but it's okay because billie is never gonna discover her real identity, right?

when billie and madison's world's collide, their relationship will be put to the test. will billie be able to commit? -lowercase intended -a lil bit of smut here and there - tw// self harm, alcohol, drugs, attempts, & death hashtag achievements: #1 in billieeilishfanfic #1 in bil #4 in billieeilish