He walks me backwards, getting dangerously close to the edge of the building. "You're a suicidal maniac and you don't even know it." He looks me up and down, lowering his tone. "But I see right through you darling" - - In which a troubled girl with insomnia meets the new boy in town, who happens to struggle with the same disorder. When fate continues to bring them closer, she inevitably catches feelings; with only 3 problems standing in the way. 1, Her incredibly controlling boyfriend. 2, Her raging trust issues. And 3, the new boy's secret past, which once revealed with change her life forever and thrust her into a journey she never could have prepared for. - - - Content warning: Contains themes of depression, murder,, suicidal thoughts, sh, substance abuse, deep discussions, etc. If any of these trigger you, I don't advise reading on <3

••• This is a story about a girl. A girl who lied all too well. One who was bored, pretty, and sad. A girl who mastered the art of pretending. Pretending since she was a little girl. The problem with playing pretend is that it gets boring. As a kid, you love it. But as you grow older, you grow tired of it. Not only that, you start to doubt what's pretend and what's not. What's worse than a girl who lies all the time to others? A girl who lies to herself even more. Blair Knight, the queen of pretending to be something she's not. She's tired of pretending to be the perfect girl, she's tired of pretending she's fine with her boring life. She wants to escape it. And he helps her escape it. The boy. The school's most loved. The one who can see past the mask Blair keeps up. The one who is deeply in love with a girl. A girl who's love was toxic but strong, always pulling him back in. This girl isn't Blair. Blair wakes up with a feeling. A feeling that sparks ideas in her head. She wants a life of excitement, a life of regrets. And thanks to Grayson, she gets one. But someone should of reminded Blair of the warning. Be careful what you wish for. Because Blair gets more regrets than she's bargain for. She started off hating Grayson. But you know what they say, there's a fine line between love and hate. And Blair? She likes to dances on it. •••

Orphic (adj.) mysterious and entrancing; beyond ordinary understanding.