This is a small collection of one-shot letters between Louis and his band mates after his successful suicide attempt. This story shows the pain and hardship of losing a band mate, a friend and a loved one.

Management wants to add a fifth member to One Direction. When Harry Styles gets chosen what will happen? Will his past traumas effect his life inside the band? Will a certain two members develop feelings for each other? Or Harry Styles becomes the fifth member of One Direction, and Louis Tomlinson just wants him to feel loved. Warning: Triggering content Self harm Mature scenes eating disorder

"What about you Louis?" Harry asks Louis. He's just finished telling him about the new piano he'll be getting soon. "I don't like to talk about myself." Louis states bluntly. "Why not?" Harry questions. Louis turns his head to look at Harry. He examines him carefully, studying his jaw and cheekbones, his lips, his nose. He looks at his chin and his eyes and his ears. Every feature on his face, Louis just seems to soak up. "Too many people don't care enough. They simply ask me what I'm like out of politeness instead of curiosity." Louis speaks carefully. It's almost as if he says one wrong word he will be scolded or taken away. "I care." Harry says. "I know you do Harry." And with that last sentence being said, Louis gets up and disappears into the night.