Sherlock realizes he loves John... But he can't have him. After John gets married, Sherlock does something he should not have.

Once the rings have been exchanged and the vows have been said, Sherlock and John are ready to settle down and get their fill of the domestic bliss that so often comes with marriage. Unfortunately, nothing is ever that simple for them... and they know the honeymoon period can't last forever. They'd promised each other "for better or for worse", but John had no idea just how bad 'worse' could be.

It all started with a trip. Sherlock had been acting weird, and everyone thought he was just stressed, so he and John go on a trip to Fiji. Yet, what was supposed to be a relaxing vacation from the stresses of detective work only opened the door for much more stress and confusion when John begins to have strange feelings around his colleague, Sherlock Holmes. And Sherlock is still acting strange.

Sequel to "I Am Sher-Locked Up" Sherlock and John navigate recovery and test the waters of their newfound relationship, and Sherlock will have to learn to let go of the darkness he clutches so close to him. ***TW: self harm, eating disorders, suicide, etc. All the stuff that was in my last book***

Depressed!Sherlock Sherlock Holmes: the man, the myth, the legend. John Watson: the soldier, the comforter, the strong. That's what everyone thinks, anyway. John has found out about the deep, dark secret Sherlock clutches so close to himself, and is determined to help the detective. The two fall in love, their resolve and strength tested every day of the war in Sherlock's head. ***TW: self harm, suicide, depression, etc***