"You don't want me?" He asked, pushing you even closer to the wall. "Is that it? Are you too afraid of your commander? Your leader?" "No, sir."

You could feel it in every move he made. It felt like a heater had been turned up to full or you were laid on the Tatooine desert dressed in full winter gear; when he entered the room a slither of sweat would worm its way down your neck and into the crevice of your back. Overwhelming -It was overwhelming. You don't know why you felt it. Other officers felt nothing but disdain or envy when he glided along the floors of the flagship, but not you. Never you. Instead, you embraced the crippling heat, the burning feeling in your veins and the tight set of your muscles. This is what power felt like, you thought. Unadulterated powerful energy. And you liked it.

You've recently become a nurse serving the First Order. So far your life was uneventful and unimportant...you felt useless in a sense. Everything changes once you become responsible for the well-being of your first commander; Kylo Ren. Will he remain loyal to the dark side? Or will you be the one to pull him towards the light? [ Fluff & Smut ] WARNINGS: Bloodplay, sexual assault, violence, death, heavy smut. If any of this makes you uncomfortable please do not read. Disclaimer: This was my very first time writing a fan fiction, I will say I was very inexperienced and I somewhat rushed the writing process. Now that this is completed, I've learned so much and I hope to improve my work in the future! Enjoy!! XOXO

Your talent in English literature hasn't gone unnoticed by your professor, Kylo Ren, but you lack the focus and application to meet your full potential. Perhaps he can urge you to give in to that potential. And to him. But the more you learn about Kylo Ren, the more you realize you can use his own tactics as a professor to help unravel the past that he refuses to face. Or, you're infatuated with your dark and brooding English professor, Kylo Ren, who, to your surprise, returns the sentiment. This is a LONG-FORM, SLOW-BURN (emotionally, not sexually) work. Please take note of that if that's not your cup of tea! That's just my style of writing, and reading for that matter, which is okay. And if that's not your cup of tea, that's okay too! Originally posted to ao3, expanded to wattpad so it can be accessibly to anyone who may want to read it, but on a different platform. This story is 18+. Periodt. Please consider the following warnings/tags. Also, a disclaimer, this story can be fairly dark. Please remember the importance of clear consent and communications if your everyday lives. -light bdsm, -slapping, -choking, -rough sex, -freudian elements, -sub/dom, -dirty talk, -over-stimulation, -so on and so forth. Additionally, there are themes of family illnesses (cancer/heart conditions/death), absent parents, dysfunctional families. Please be careful or opt out if these themes, or the above tags, are triggering or are harmful for your mental health in any way, as most or all of them are prevalent and recurring throughout the entire work. Your well-being is way more important than any fanfic.

The King and Queen of Calidum have married you off to the Supreme Leader of the First Order to protect their people. Although fearful, you use what little hope you have to try your best to survive through the newfound predicament you're in... only to find out the Force has more in store for you and Kylo Ren. ORIGINAL STORY: COMPLETED (2019) PREQUEL STORY: COMPLETED (2020) SEQUEL STORY: ONGOING (2021) .・゜゜・　FYI　・゜゜・． ○ THIS IS A READER INSERT ○ NSFW (18+) + ANGST ○ ALTERNATE UNIVERSE .・゜゜・　RANKS　・゜゜・． ○ #1 in the KyloRen tag (6/16/19) ○ #1 in the Kylo tag (6/16/19) ○ #5 in the StarWars tag (2/7/20) ○ #1 in the SW tag (7/12/20) ○ #1 in the BenSolo tag (9/12/20) ○ #1 in the KyloxReader tag (1/5/21) ○ #4 in the AlternateUniverse tag (1/5/21) ○ #1 in the Kylo tag (2/20/21) ○ #3 in the KyloRen tag (3/24/21)

"manihlapinatapai" (n). a look shared by two people, each wishing that the other one would initiate something they both desire but which neither wants to begin ------------------------ all you have ever known was pain; the pain of losing everything and everyone. so you decided to shut it off and shut everybody out, but little did you know you'd find yourself struggling to regain that power when you come across the most feared man in the galaxy. power runs through him, he feeds off it. but so do you. •suggested 17+ •mature content •trigger warning