I wish he'd look at me the way he looks at her. Tw: selfharm, abuse, suicide, swearing, etc.

*bad grammar intended* through a series of texts, calls and emails, john laurens forms a slight bond with stranger who goes by the name 'a.h.' or 'alex'. though the two have never met, john wants to meet them. their faces have never been seen by one another, but john still wants to meet them. soon, john falls. in love. with alex.

I wrote the first bunch of chapters at 3am during a burst of creativity and anger??? And then I started trying to promote a good message??????? Now I'm numb inside???? Hey I thought it was a good idea to mix australian high school, american founding fathers, angst and comedy. Good luck.

[completed] it's like a goddamn tragedy because he looks at him like he put the stars in the sky and he looks at him like he's the only thing that matters but they both think that the other is looking down. [cover drawn by: @hamilsquadlamslife] [highest ranking: 156 in hamilton, 79 in Lams]