The instinct not to breathe underwater is so strong that it overcomes the agony of running out of air. No matter how desperate you are, you won't inhale until you're on the verge of losing consciounsness. Sirius knew that. He stood there, staring down to the black, cold water and pondering, would it be easier just to jump. He was on the edge, not just of the quay but of his own mind and sanity. The fall wouldn't kill him. The waves would. ... This is a Remus x Sirius Hogwarts years fanfiction I started writing a while back, in wich Sirius struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts. Remus tries his best to be there for his best friend, but his state of mind isn't the healthiest either. Contains triggering stuff, please don't read if you know you can't put up with stuff like ABUSE, SUICIDE, strong language or VIOLENCE. Also, all of this is based on the characters of the Harry Potter series. The cover picture is from tumblr and I added the name of this fic on it, so I do not own it. All of this is written by me, partly based on some of the events from my own life and suicidal thoughts I've had a long time ago, so please don't copy the storyline as it's partly very personal. Hope you'll like it

Book 1/4 (Returned 2/4, Risen 3/4) My blood ran cold at her words. Everything went still. I noticed Ron and Hermione turn to look at me. Their faces showed pure shock. Then, In a tense whisper, with tears in his eyes, Harry spoke. "Damn you, Weasley." It's now been 10 years since the battle of Hogwarts and Harry has great deal of mental struggles as a result of the course his life has taken. Ginny has tried to help him, but he is unperceptive to her efforts. It's not until Draco Malfoy unexpectedly reenters his life, that things start taking a few turns. Will Harry make it though the battles that rage on in his mind? --This first book and a half is Rough, quality-wise. It's too severe to edit. Y'all are just going to have to give it a chance. I promise that it gets way better as you go through the four books.-- Trigger warnings for this whole thing. Mentions of abuse, self harm, suicidal thoughts. etc. The plot, and some minor characters, are the only thing that belongs to me and my friend This story can also be found under the same title on: Ao3 (username: Greeneggsandham25) Achievements: #19 Teddy Lupin (April 27, 2025) #50 anxiety disorder (February 28, 2021) #42 Scorpius (February 21, 2021)

Harry has been abused since the war not to mention he just got his inheritance. He has been severly depressed since the war and eventually just gives up until he gets a letter. He dreads going back to hogwarts for an eighth year especially now that he's a submissive and dominates are on the search for open mates. He gets threats all over and is hexed until an unexpected dom. courts him. How will this end read to find out.