[from: 7/24] "When you have someone, someone really special, you don't think -or even dare to think- a life without them. Well, a little advise: think of it, or you'll end up like me." -Xingqiu. He loved him, but he just realised that too late. A/N: This is an angst XingYun fan fiction. May contains some triggers. Don't like it? Don't read it!