I'm afraid of all I am My mind feels like a foreign land Silence ringing inside my head Please, carry me, carry me, carry me home I spent all of the love I've saved We were always a losing game Small-town boy in a big arcade I got addicted to a losing game ~ [TW: CONTAINS SELF HARM, SUICIDE ATTEMPTS AND THOUGHTS, DEPRESSION, ABUSE AND A LOT OF ANGST] Inspo playlist: -arcade (duncan laurence) -sippy cup (melanie martiniez) -broken (lund) -fiction (lund) -skin and bones (lund) -low (lund)

Between the two of them, Osamu had always been more liked. Well, maybe not when it came to Sakusa, but in every other aspect. Where Atsumu was sassy and arrogant, he was mature and calmer. Where Atsumu was known for being a self-entitled asshole, Osamu got popular for his quiet yet kind nature. And where Atsumu got insecure, hiding it with layers upon layers of masks and always got in trouble with his mother, Osamu didn't notice. And neither did the team. It seemed as if he was caught in a ticking time bomb, and the situation was just waiting for the right moment to explode in order to create more damage, both to himself and everyone around him. Word count: 61.033 ᵃˡˢᵒ ᵃᵛᵃⁱˡᵃᵇˡᵉ ᵒⁿ ᵃʳᶜʰⁱᵛᵉᵒᶠᵒᵘʳᵒʷⁿ ᵃⁿᵈ ʸᵒᵘᵗᵘᵇᵉ › ᵃˢ ʷᵉˡˡ ᵃˢ ʷⁱᵗ

My relationship with Sasuke must be kept a secret. Due to the fact that we live in such a small village, everybody knows us and news spreads around fast. I'm afraid if someone were to find out about me and Sasuke, we'd be in deep trouble. The last time a gay couple was found out in the village they were brutally punished. Sneaking around is our only option. It doesn't help that Sasuke is... horny... all the time. But I refuse to live in fear for the rest of my life! So, we made a plan to escape this hellish village! We must move to the big city, where everyone is accepted for who they are. But that requires funds that we don't have. Working small jobs in our village is the only way to save up enough money. The thing is, I don't know if we'll survive until then. ~SasuNaru~ (This story includes mature language and very sexual actions. Trigger Warning; blood, f-slur, attempted rape. You have been warned.) Complete :)