The only reason I put this out here was because I couldnt share it with anyone in my life without upsetting them, so here we are... And I use this space as a sorta diary to sort my thought out so sometimes itll come off as greedy or ungrateful or jelouse and needy or narcissistic but please take it with a grain of salt cause raw emotions always come out wrong and this is where I go to deside how to share them with the rest of the world (Also the you I refer to is like 4 diffrent people, ones my ex, ones my best friend, ones the person I'm currently talking to. Goldstar to anyone who can keep up with who is who because I cant even do it sometimes) You should read @naughtynadiaaaa's stuff, her story/poetry thing is really good.