(COMPLETE, now with an epilogue!) RusGer hanahaki AU with a lot of angst but also filled with hurt comfort. Russia is seemingly in love with someone else while Germany suffers over it, both mentally and physically. TW: suicide, loss, many mental health issues, please look out for yourself don't hurt yourself! After so long and so many IRL tears I've finally finished it. If you're a new reader, please have a look! I spent a lot of time writing this book, and there's around 10k words per chapter. Please give my novel a chance :,)