(WARNING: This fic deals with heavy themes such as depression, mental illness, self harm, and suicide. Reader's discretion is advised.) Shinji Ikari is at his breaking point. He's never felt emptier in his entire life. Going through life is a chore, piloting the EVA is draining, and he can't seem to get along with anyone. Especially Asuka, the pilot of EVA Unit-02 and his roommate. He always finds himself falling for her, only for his heart to be stomped and spat on. One night, when he's at his lowest low with no light at the end of the tunnel, Shinji makes an attempt at his own life. But when Asuka walks in on him, she is thrust back to the moment her mother made the same decision. As Shinji lies comatose in NERV's hospital, Asuka and Misato wait with baited breath for him to come back. Can Asuka save Shinji from himself? Can she save herself as well, and face her demons that all stem from that fateful day in her past? Can Shinji forgive himself, as well as Asuka? Any way the wind blows, the answers will be revealed.

Asuka Langley Soryu and Shinji Ikari grew on each other during the aftermath of Angelic Battles. An "almost" erotic novel. I don't own anything. Just a great fan. Credits to the artist of this art cover. It's awesome.

Shinjis father is never around, and his mother is too busy at work for him. He doesn't have many friends, and he doesn't do much. His sister Rei is always in her room unless at school and she keeps to herself unless she needs something or is worried about Shinji. He just doesn't know what to do anymore. This is the story of him finding out what he wants to do, and who he wants to be. - In this universe, its a lot similar to the Episode 26 alternate reality, but in Shinjis mind Evangelion is just a dream or rather a day dream nightmare type scenario he uses to cope with his issues and problems - Mainly Shinji's POV (Normal life AU)

His skin was of snow, eyes red as Lilin blood.His touch-a cold touch of the reaper himself-was his punishment. As the god of Winter himself, he brought everything-life to its last breath. Everything he could ever admire, everything humans and life itself grew would slowly die off, the relic inside him bloomed as months, years passed by. Never in his immortal (or mortal) life would he ever dare to imagine meeting anyone like him. [In short, it's basically a Divine Season AU for one of my favorite animes, Neon Genesis Evangelion.]

"What are you wishing for, Shinji?" Kaworu asks, his voice soft yet...tired. "What is that you want?" What is it that you wish for? Shinji stays quiet, staring at the sky above. The moon was nothing like how he imagined it to be when he woke up. The ocean-if you could call it that- smelled like blood. He could almost taste it from where he was lying at. Shinji was emotionless, as if he had nothing to receive and give. As if- What is that you wish from me? Please I can't bear to see you like this "Nothing" ____ A collection of stories following the many different lives of Shinji and Kaworu.

14 year old Shinji ikari struggles with depression and anxiety, but all of that changes when he meets the 5th children, Kaorwu Nagisa who shows him he is worthy of affection AU: i rlly love this ship so i thought id write fanfiction of them, but please know ive not quite wrapped my mind around neon genesis evangelion completely as it is quite abstract and complicated so i try to focus things on their relationship other then the events that go in in evangelion, so pls lmk if i have wrote anything inccorect i will base a few chapters off the episode where they meet but i will try keep it diffrent and change things a bit Hope you enjoy!

Kaworu has had enough of how Gendo has been treating his lover lately, so he decides to give Shinji an important lesson of his worth, through snuggles and kisses by the fire!

Shinji is struggling to understand the meaning of home and Kaworu is just there. --- [contents: kawoshin (ofc lol), verbal abuse??] {AU!modernkawoshin} ☆ ☆

Everybody finds happiness, in the end. Shinji and Kaworu meet again in a world where no angels need to be fought or evas to be piloted and everything seems perfect until Kaworu finds out that Shinji suffers from heart failure. As they both struggle to find happiness, Shinji tries out different treatments until only to be left with no option in the end.

In a dystopian world scientists have created a drug that can temporarily kill you. After they give this drug to "volunteers" with special machines they can monitor them in the afterlife in their effort to answer humanity's number one mystery: What comes after death. Though experiments keep failing with the volunteers waking up with no memories, traumatized and shocked to the point they never talk again. Shinji and Kaworu are different though, they didn't wake up at all. At the same time everyone thinks they are dead and never coming back, they desperately try to find a way to come back from the spiritual world they ended up together.