How do you stop feeling numb? After the tragic death of her famous father, Lila Sinclair must face two different obstacles: An abusive Ex boyfriend that broke what was left of her heart And a curly headed singer, who is keen on making Lila feel Alive again. How do you stop feeling numb? Warnings: self harm, abuse, r*pe, panic attacks, smut, and some horrid flashbacks.

"don't hang around him, tessa." "why not?" "trouble follows him everywhere." tessa works for her father's law firm the summer before college. she thinks she knows the ins and outs of everyone there, but as soon as the mysterious, quiet ethan dolan shows up, she's not so sure anymore. but people have layers. and tessa is determined to peel them back.

"But Leah never even shed a tear, her face was completely blank. I don't know if she is numb or in shock but it's weirding me out. I've never seen Leah so calm in my life." ~ ~ ~ Leah Davis is numb, so numb that she seems Calm to everyone around her. Too calm for the situation she's in. Everyone is telling her that it's okay to cry and it's okay to be sad. Leah wishes she could just let it out but she can't, she's numb, closed off. She's like a locked safe with a missing key. Is Harry that missing key? {BOOK 2/2} started 10/4/20 ~ 6/11/21 *WARNING* IF YOU HAVEN'T READ ANXIOUS GO READ IT RIGHT NOW! BEST RANKINGS: 15 in #harry 2 in #styles 12 in #direction 22 in #calm ALL RIGHTS RESERVED @cryinginacoolway_132

"Why are you asking me these questions?" I say, I can feel a panic attack coming on. I close my eyes taking a deep breath in and a deep breath out. I don't care how stupid I look. I don't want to have a panic attack in front of him, I've never had a panic attack in front of anyone before. "Well I can tell how anxious you are," he states, pointing to my shaking hands. "And I thought maybe I can help distract from whatever is making you so nervous. Are you like this all the time or is it just me?" he continues. "No, trust me it's not you, I'm like this all the time," I say, my voice now shaking. I feel like I could cry. ~ ~ ~ Leah Davis is a very anxious girl. Anxious to the point where it makes it hard for her to open up to people, in fear of getting hurt. She meets Harry, a confident rock star, at least she thinks he is. He takes her on a wild ride of figuring out how to be open with people. Will she ever be fully open with Harry? {BOOK 1/2} started 7/14/20 ~ ended 10/4/20 BEST RANKINGS: 1 in #harry 1 in #styles 1 in #one 1 in #direction 1 in #anxiety 2 in #onedirection ALL RIGHTS RESERVED @cryinginacoolway_132

"you're always the only one, riley kate." COMPLETED (sequel- "oxygen"- out now) riley is starting her first year of college. the same college her brother and his best friend, ethan, attend. ethan and riley soon discover that they're more alike than they thought (besides being dorm neighbors). with having to sneak around due to riley's brother, the two of them find out things about each other, and about themselves. will the world work in their favor, or will it fall flat?

"look, i don't need your help, alright?" "clearly you do." anna begins to work as a golf cart driver at a pristine country club on the coast of california to help her chances of getting into her dream college. the family she works for is a long-time friend of anna's dad, and she assumes she will adjust smoothly. but ethan dolan will just not accept the extra presence for the summer.