"manihlapinatapai" (n). a look shared by two people, each wishing that the other one would initiate something they both desire but which neither wants to begin ------------------------ all you have ever known was pain; the pain of losing everything and everyone. so you decided to shut it off and shut everybody out, but little did you know you'd find yourself struggling to regain that power when you come across the most feared man in the galaxy. power runs through him, he feeds off it. but so do you. •suggested 17+ •mature content •trigger warning

Your talent in English literature hasn't gone unnoticed by your professor, Kylo Ren, but you lack the focus and application to meet your full potential. Perhaps he can urge you to give in to that potential. And to him. But the more you learn about Kylo Ren, the more you realize you can use his own tactics as a professor to help unravel the past that he refuses to face. Or, you're infatuated with your dark and brooding English professor, Kylo Ren, who, to your surprise, returns the sentiment. This is a LONG-FORM, SLOW-BURN (emotionally, not sexually) work. Please take note of that if that's not your cup of tea! That's just my style of writing, and reading for that matter, which is okay. And if that's not your cup of tea, that's okay too! Originally posted to ao3, expanded to wattpad so it can be accessibly to anyone who may want to read it, but on a different platform. This story is 18+. Periodt. Please consider the following warnings/tags. Also, a disclaimer, this story can be fairly dark. Please remember the importance of clear consent and communications if your everyday lives. -light bdsm, -slapping, -choking, -rough sex, -freudian elements, -sub/dom, -dirty talk, -over-stimulation, -so on and so forth. Additionally, there are themes of family illnesses (cancer/heart conditions/death), absent parents, dysfunctional families. Please be careful or opt out if these themes, or the above tags, are triggering or are harmful for your mental health in any way, as most or all of them are prevalent and recurring throughout the entire work. Your well-being is way more important than any fanfic.

Being with the Resistance wasn't always easy, you were continously faced with obstacles. One obstacle being your love, the one you had loved since the very beginning. "He's gone" you say, trying hard to convince yourself that the one you had loved had turned. He'd turned into such a terrible monster you couldn't bare to think about it. "Ben Solo is gone" ▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪ 《There are a few direct quotes from The Force Awakens, so those words do not belong to me.》 《This is MY own work so, simply do not steal it and we won't have any problems.》 《Also I've done most of this story on my phone so I apologize for any autocorrects and typos in advance.》