a dwindling, mercurial high - - - - - - - inspired by Taylor Swifts song, illicit affairs. I do not own criminal minds, just this plot and oc's. all rights are reserved

(Y/n) Moves 600 miles away from home to escape a toxic relationship. She starts her own little life in D.C., but when bills come calling, she gets a job as a Professional Submissive and meets a curious man named Spencer. Privacy and security seem to be paramount to him, but as their relationship grows, it won't be long until something gives. ~~I Also have no idea how Wattpad works. I wrote primarily on Quotev and A03 so please be patient with me~~

["The second his lips touched yours, the roar of bad memories and gruesome crime scenes that always filled the silence in your mind dulled down to a whisper. The darkness of the world faded into an afterthought, barely a blip in the back of your mind. The demons stopped clawing at your throat and settled down to hibernate for the night. For the first time in years, you felt like you could breathe. No amount of booze in the world could have compared to that feeling. You had found a new distraction, a new way to forget, and he was highly addictive."] * Following a particularly grueling case and an unexpected night together, the reader and Spencer Reid become friends-with-benefits: no expectations, no strings attached, nothing more than just using each other for sex. But as the reader and Spencer grow closer despite their best efforts, ghosts from the reader's past begin overtaking her present, threatening the delicate thing between them. And though their arrangement is just meant to distract them both from the horrors of their day-to-day lives, the reader comes to find that some horrors just refuse to be ignored. Some ghosts just refuse to stay dead. _ Beautiful cover by Cynthia (or clarade on ao3)!!

Acting on impulse, you show up at your boss, Aaron Hotchner's, doorstep in the middle of the night. The resulting night of passion kickstarts a timeline of events you never could've imagined. Crazy how one night could cause so much pain and pleasure.