the last time i updated this thing for real was in 2015, so i highly advise against reading this. even so, i will never cease to be astonished at the sheer number of individuals who have willingly read and loved this book over the course of the past years. no matter how cringey this old material may be, it brings back a sense of nostalgia to my early wattpad days that i'll never forget. if i was ever feeling down, there would be thousands of people here to listen and to support me. i owe everyone who read this book any time between 2014-2015 the world, for you guys, i'll be forever grateful. thank you for everything. on a side note, please stop and refrain from calling me your "senpai" or "author-nim." cover credit: harry clarke, "silence"

"Love you, Fletcher." "The feeling is mutual, Lydia Grace."

She found something, or rather someone, she never expected to find in her new room.

When someone misses someone else, they would do anything...

My name is Eleanor Calder. You might know who I am. I model, but millions of teenage girls knew me as the girl who dated Louis Tomlinson from One Direction. Yeah, I said dated. No we did not break up. How are we not together if we didn't break up? He died. Louis Tomlinson died. As well as: Niall Horan Liam Payne and Harry Styles. You may recognise them as well. As well as a girl named Danielle Peazer, my best friend. Also Liam Payne's girlfriend. Dead. Gone. There one day and gone the next. Deceased. Get it now? Not in complete shock? One other thing, did you notice that there was one missing from the list? Someone who is usually mentioned? Someone by the name of Zayn Malik? Well he's still alive. Right here next to me, right now. He says hello. This is our story of what happened when One Direction died. The world will never be the same. I guarantee it.