pyr·rhic /ˈpirik/ (of a victory) won at too great a cost to have been worthwhile for the victor. "with your love, your love i'm a better, better man with your love, your love i'm a better, better man darling, all of my wrongs, they led me right to you wrapped in your arms, i swear i'd die for your love, your love i'm a better, better man thought i'd found the highest of highs you came and topped them all you shine in the dead of the night and i was the first to fall" in which he decided that being lonely was his prerogative, as long as he's lonely with her.

e·phem·er·al /əˈfem(ə)rəl/ lasting for a very short time. "meet me downtown at the dive bar you're the only one that makes me feel alive i can't keep drowning in the shadows you're the only one that matters i don't wanna kill my time with somebody else dancing in the dark 'til the sun comes tangled in the sheets 'til the day's done i don't wanna kill my time with somebody else in a city full of lonely people, i just want you all to myself" in which he'd throw it all away for a moment by her side.

in·ure /əˈn(y)o͝or/ accustom (someone) to something, especially something unpleasant. "every moment spent, i wish i was with you and every night i slept, i dreamt i was with you no matter where you go, you know i'd wait for you i would break and bend, if you wanted me to so you go your way and i'll go mine and if we're meant to, i'll meet you there we can't speed up the hands of time but if we're meant to i'll meet you there" in which he chose to leave her; despite his heart forever beating for her alone. *takes place in 2018*

de·mure /dəˈmyo͝or/ reserved, modest, and shy (typically used of a woman). "so take me as i am take me for everything replacing who i am with who i'd rather be so take me as i am take me for everything replacing who i am because of you i'm gone for good and that's the truth because of you i'm gone for good, i'll be brand new you can break me down just like you did before because of you i'm gone for good and that's me over and out" in which the girl that makes him feel the most alive; also holds the ticket to his demise.

"Promise me you'll be fine?" She said as the two of held onto each other's hands for dear life. "I'll be just fine." I said kissing her hand and reassured her through my tears.

"If I only want you when I'm vulnerable then you only need me when you're drunk.", Ava almost whispered upon his muted tears, her voice cracking mid-sentence. But that he was the one causing her to feel vulnerable while he got drunk on needing her remained unspoken that night. // Coping with emotional outbursts by biting into a lemon was way more effective, so he found, when tasting the yellow fruit from in between the lips of his night-time lover. // TW: DRUGS, ALCOHOL, VULGAR LANGUAGE, VANDALISM, DESCRIPTIVE SEXUAL CONTENT, MENTAL ILLNESS (PANIC ATTACKS OR EMOTIONAL OUTBURSTS IN GENERAL, INSOMNIA AND DEPRESSION MAINLY) // started december 31st 2021

"Smoking is bad, you know." The placid voice speaks up from the distant dark corner, nothing to see but a tall silhouette and an orange glow of a cigarette cherry. "It's the least of my problems," I murmur with my own between my lips, proceeding to feel the stagnant debris valley my throat when I suck delicately. He exhales a chuckle of cynical amusement, his footsteps getting every step clearer to my eardrums until I eventually sense body heat burning my back. "And why is that?" He whispers over my shoulder, hands inviting themselves to grip the railing in front of me so I become a prisoner between his inked arms. I swallow. "Because you'll be the one to kill me first." // Aven Brooks is hired to take pictures for the world-renown punk rock band known today as Duplicity; hoping the experience gets her into her most elite-dreamed university. However, when her lenses accidentally capture more than just cheeky sound checks and performances, she comes to a horrifying discovery that Duplicity is anything but a band. Appalled and frightened, she's trapped. *HIGHEST RANKINGS* #1 IN HARRYSTYLES #1 IN ONEDIRECTION ALL RIGHTS RESERVED TO @happydays1d NOT ALLOWING TRANSLATIONS! CONTAINS VULGAR LANGUAGE / DRUG ABUSE / SEXUAL CONTENT / DESCRIPTIVE VIOLENCE / MENTAL HEALTH READ AT OWN RISK!

A song brings two strangers together.

How many secrets can you keep? Sequel to No. 1 Party Anthem

Forever isn't for everyone, is forever for you?