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This is not a story about an ambitious woman conquering the world.
Nor is it about a woman who knows exactly what she wants from life.
This is a story about Lydia-a woman who appears, only appears, to be relaxed.
Relaxed not because she comes from wealth, or because life has been easy on her.
On the contrary, Lydia is a heavy overthinker.
She is 32 years old, and her life feels like standing at a crowded crossroads where nothing seems to move.
Around her, people her age are speeding forward, living lives that feel like a constant race.
They're called the burnout generation-working endlessly, chasing targets, as if twenty-four hours a day is never enough.
On Instagram, they display career milestones, marriages, and overseas vacations.
Lydia, on the other hand, often feels like she's standing still.
She wants success.
She wants a life that fits traditional expectations-to be married before thirty.
But that desire often collides with an exhaustion that settles in even before she begins.
She watches her friends get married on Instagram, then quickly pretends not to care, afraid of looking desperate.
Sometimes, she even considers switching her Instagram account to public-maybe she could earn some extra money from endorsements.
But a thousand worst-case scenarios flood her mind immediately:
What if people criticize me?
What if I fail?
What if I become the subject of gossip?
Lydia has never truly been open with others.
With men, she tends to start enthusiastically-imagining a future together-but the moment conversations turn serious, poof, she slowly retreats.
Could she be avoidant? She wonders.
In a world that constantly demands movement, Lydia chooses stillness.
There is Lydia, pretending to be relaxed.
There is Lydia, avoiding confrontation- even with herself.