motherofmany4
It's been sad from the jump, growing up in the trailer park, daddy died, so momma always cried until she learned how to numb it.
numbing the pain is something I could never understand.
I guess that's why I mirrored the image of a cold woman who always felt she needed a man.
until God gave me with 2 sons, until he took one and saved my life with a surprise.
now im 27 and realize that this LIFE shit, yeah,
ain't no body tell yah you gotta be Samta by the end of it-
daydreams, nightmares, everything we see, is it juat this life shit or is it always gonna be my reality?
if what they say,
that, "every dream is just a dream within a dream",
then When can I wake up???
maybe in another life I'd have both parents --
or .maybe mom wouldn't be so sad and would had to be Mom AND Dad-. I guess that's why she was mad-
I got her temper and my dad's control mental.
atheist that's what I assume, im 27, and think to .y self, would he have done the same thing too?
smoke weed with me to early, drink at the kids parties,
"what's that?"
"oh no?Schools tomorrow and I'm tired"
"this will wake u up, I love you Abs' I'd never want you to fail"
you'll pass, hit this so you won't t be tired"
oh wait, now your off the deep end, get some help or your fired"
you buried your son, don't come over
"I only want dope, I need this job,
HES HITTING ME!!!
Is it that bad? or Abbi are you just tired-----
I love you so much honey but I can't save you.
we don't have time for that, hide it better or I'll kick you out,.....
"if I save myself, I'd have to destroy her--,, she loves what I can do to keep her haply-,, no matter if I die in the proxess.