Addictionpoetry Stories

Leaving the drinkers was the first brutal step, not towards healing, not towards clarity, but toward staying alive long enough to have a chance. This is the opening piece of *Carousel of Destruction*, a prequel cycle to *Barbed Wire Psalms* about the gravity of addiction, the people who kept spinning, and the moment you stepped off the ride.

Desperate thoughts in desperate times.

There's a moment in recovery when everything goes quiet- your hands steady, the floor stops tilting, and the reflection in the mirror finally looks survivable again. That's when the past pulls hardest. "The Pullback" is a haunting look into the gravity of relapse temptation- friends who didn't make it, memories that won't let go, and the dangerous comfort of the life you walked away from. A brutally honest entry in Barbed Wire Psalms about resisting the orbit of addiction and choosing life, even when the pull feels impossible to escape.

this poem is based on Lincolns addiction which he developed at mt weather from the red serum in the needle.

What being high or drunk is like for me.

They say when you get sober to buy a suit. This is about my experience with death in recovery.