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In the turmoil following Germany's defeat in the First World War, William Stern is a disillusioned young man searching for purpose amid national humiliation, political unrest, and personal hardship. After surviving a devastating accident and undergoing a mysterious near-death experience, William awakens with fragmented memories, disturbing visions, and psychic abilities he cannot fully understand.
Seeking belonging, William joins the German Workers' Party, where he becomes entangled with the emerging National Socialist movement. His journey carries him from the political gatherings at the Sterneckerbräu to the movement's hidden back rooms, the Beer Hall Putsch, Adolf Hitler's imprisonment, and William's unsettling association with military intelligence officer Karl Mayr. As the party's influence grows, William discovers that power is changing him-awakening desires for control, aggression, and domination that threaten his remaining humanity.
William's relationship with his former girlfriend, Lise, becomes another battleground for his supernatural influence. Photographs that vanish and mysteriously return suggest that he has altered both memory and time itself. Visions of fire, masked figures, celestial beings, and shifting events convince him that history is no longer fixed. Each attempt to manipulate reality draws him deeper into guilt, obsession, and moral corruption.
As past and present begin to overlap, William confronts the terrifying possibility that his suffering, political radicalization, and near-death awakening are connected to Adolf Hitler's destiny. Trapped between supernatural forces and his own darkest impulses, he must determine whether he is witnessing history, reshaping it, or becoming part of the evil that will consume Germany.
Meine Not (My Hardships) is a dark historical and supernatural novel about trauma, power, memory, and the corruption of the soul. Through William Stern's descent, it explores how personal despair can be transformed into poli