IanBleu
He ghosted me for eight years.
Then he sent an engagement announcement to our entire friend group. To someone who isn't me. And somehow that's the part I'm supposed to be normal about.
Rule #1: don't fall for your straight best friend.
Rule #2: definitely don't let him ruin every guy after him.
Rule #3: for the love of god, don't get on a plane with him for ten days.
Mickey broke all three before he even finished reading the group chat.
Eight years ago, something happened between him and Trevor that neither of them has ever said out loud. Not that night. Not since. Trevor's straight - allegedly, unbothered, still gorgeous, still infuriating - and Mickey's spent almost a decade building an entire personality around Never Thinking About It Again.
Then Trevor gets engaged. To one of Mickey's closest friends. And invites the whole friend group to Hawaii to celebrate - ten days, one resort, nowhere left to hide.
Mickey tells himself he's over it.
His friends do not believe him.
Trevor does not make this easy.
His own self-control, historically, has never been reliable where this man is concerned.
This is a book about self-respect, bad decisions, a friend group with entirely too many secrets of their own, and one very specific kind of heat - the kind that doesn't announce itself until it's already too late to spit out.
⚠️ tw/cw: forbidden love, unrequited yearning (or is it??), morally gray everything, a friend group with way too much going on
if you're the type who:
- screams into a pillow during a slow burn
- has a weakness for love interests you shouldn't be rooting for
- lives for secondhand embarrassment and chaotic best friends
- reads "it's giving yearning-coded" and feels personally attacked
...welcome home.
Spice Level: 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️
Mickey is not okay.
You're not going to be okay either.
Let's suffer together.