yuny_verse
I don't remember deciding.Suddenly I was moving-out, out, out -the front door, the porch,the driveway.Tears carved hot tracks down my face. The night air bit my skin
My husband was kissing my best friend. Kissing.They were about to have sex.In our house.On the sofa we picked together
Why?
I sobbed it out loud, my feet pounding pavement
Sandra was my sister.Not by blood - by everything else.We survived Mum's funeral together.She held my hair when I was sick.I gave her my clothes, my car, my connections, my trust. Why did she
I kept running
Xander.Wasn't I a good wife?I loved him until it hurt.I gave him me. My company.My future.My body. Wasn't I enough? Where did I go wrong? Was I too much?Too little?What?
I kept running
I loved them.I gave them everything. And they took each other.Did they laugh about me?Did they plan this? Did I mean nothing?
I wish -
Suddenly tires screamed
A crash tore the night open
A bang like the world ending
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Beep Beep Beep
Sounds
I slowly cracked my eyes open. Blinding lights.I shut them.
My body felt wrong, flattened, rearranged,every bone under displaced
Something like a groan drags out of me
My body hurts so bad
"Doctor, doctor, she's awake.Ma'm Zara is awake!"
The voice was female.Frantic. Someone's hands clamp around mine.Damp.Trembling.Too tight
Awake?
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Voices circles me,muffled and distant:
"..not surprising, given the length of the coma.Retrograde amnesia is expected.We'll run a full neuro panel,assess the deficit."Dr Fujiwara said
The woman sobs,splintered. "No, doctor.. she can't remember anything?"
"Its not uncommon, given the trauma.We'll allow for spontaneous recall.If there's no progress in a month, we initiate cognitive therapy.But we need to take it slow- no stress, no pressure." A pause.Paper shuffles. "I'm sorry, Miss Kikyo."
Kikyo.Was that her name?
She sniffs,fingers finding mine again."I'll be right here, Ma'm Zara." her voice barely above a whisper
My mind stutters
Ma'm Zara?