Better-of-friends cerita

With him it felt like my whole world combusted in that one moment, I screech and cried and hung on for dear life because I was scared of what was awaiting me. But when that little girl died, I didn't feel anything, it felt like the last few strands I'd been holding onto to not fall into an endless abyss of nothingness had been cut and I didn't care because I'd been holding on for so long I was ready to rest. He ruined me, but she was the light at the end of the tunnel that faded away from existence and then I had no reason to live because I was nothing and there was nothing for me to continue walking towards. So, l let myself fall and I've been falling ever since. I'm not heartless, I just don't have anyone left to please because all that awaits me now is death and to me, it really couldn't come quicker.